yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive.

Sunday, March 13, 2011 6:32 PM

I know I know, blogging after super long. Well, I went out with QB yesterday till late, to go for the NTU Openhouse plus sorta celebrate her bday. Had an awesome time, and when I reached home, at about 3am, QB sent me this message:

"Okay serious. You know fatty, anyone and everyone who sent me birthday wishes got themselves a long reply from me by SMS. Yup, all except you. It's like no matter how hard I try drafting, the sms will never be adequate or perfect in expressing how much I appreciate you as a friend. So thank you, thanks for being there when I'm in need, being there even when I'm bored or even when I just need company. You are an awesome awesome person and I'm sure someday, she will see thru all those fats, the heart thats beating with kindness and love. Honestly, I had so much fun today. So much fun that I'll prolly smile whenever I think of today in future! Goodnight fatty! You're the best! (: "

When I received the message, I honestly felt a bit..weird? Not in a bad way though. And I kept thinking why it felt so weird. And then it hit me: in the 20 years I've lived, I've had my highs and lows, made my fair share of friends and enemies, given my all for my friends and been overlooked, neglected and stepped over by the same friends countless times, but this is the first time EVER that I've really REALLY felt appreciated and loved. And btw, see the bold part of the msg? I sure as hell hope she's right.

Labels: edmeline LOL

Sunday, February 6, 2011 11:21 AM

How many times do you find yourself faking a smile just so that everyone around you thinks you’re okay, when the truth is, you’re dying inside?

And do you realise that the people that smile and laugh the most are the ones who are suffering the most. Because laughter isn’t only the best medicine, it’s also the best disguise.
I should know.

Taken from my tumblr post.

Labels: of laughter and smiles

Saturday, January 29, 2011 9:44 AM

You know what's more painful than seeing the love of your life love someone else? It's seeing the love of your life break her heart because of that someone else.
And you know what's the only thing more painful than that? It's when you give her all your attention and try so hard to get her to move on by giving her all you've got, and build up hope in the process, and just when you think that maybe, just maybe, you've become that someone significant in her life, what you've been waiting so long to be, she makes up with that someone and totally shatters your hope, dream, and heart. This was a mistake. And I hate that I can't hate you.

Labels: heart.shattered.

Saturday, December 25, 2010 2:50 AM

You know what? I thought it was long over, but even after all this time, it's not. I still think about you all the time. I still crave for your attention. I still try so damn hard to make you notice me. I still stare at my phone anxiously all the time, waiting for you to reply. And I still smile at every single reply you text me. Heck, I smile at the mere mention of your name. And I'd still do anything just to make you smile.

And yet I know the fact is that while, to me, you're everything, to you, I'm just a somebody. I hate the very knowledge of this. I yearn for your presence, and I only wish that you'd think of me even 5% as much as I think of you. And after all this while (sorry Michelle, I know you're gonna scream at me), you know what? I'm still in love with you.

Labels: ineedyounow

Sunday, December 5, 2010 4:44 PM

I'm blogging again after almost a year? LOL. Anyway, here's just a quick flashback of stuff that's happened:

A levels - I got B, C, D. Rejected by all 3 local unis. Trying again next year.

Life - I'm in army. In 1SIR. AKA: HELL. This is my 10th month. 14 more months to freedom!

Brunei - I'm going there in January, for Exercise - Lancer. Outfield in Brunei for 3 weeks, with 4 days of Navex with a 20kg load, climbing Mount Biang on another day, and outfield platoon training for the rest of the days. It's gonna be 3 weeks of hell. Seriously.

Friends - I've made lots of them in army. Awesome friends who've went through hell together. Outside of army, I'm glad to say that I'm still close to all my other friends; be it from JC or sec sch.

Ties - I've started talking to Eunice again. I know, it's a freaking HUGE move. But some things are just so valuable and important to me that it's best to keep them alive.

Addiction - Ever since I've enlisted, I've tried quitting smoking several times, and, well, I haven't been successful yet. Everyone keeps telling me to quit, and I wanna quit, but people don't recognise the difference between HABIT and ADDICTION. This is an addiction, and breaking it isn't as easy as people think it is. Ohh btw, my parents caught me smoking, so yea.

K I can't really remember other significant updates right now. And well, I'm booking in at 2130 later zzz.

BUT the real reason I'm blogging is to talk about last night. Last night, I went to Timbre@ Old School with the usual bunch. Fatty, HL, Zu, Nic, Rid, Eter. I thought I was organising the gathering, cos I sent out the messages and asked everyone to gather and stuff. But then I realised it was actually a secret belated birthday plot planned by Fatty LOL.

Anyways, we met up, had a few drinks (no wait, a LOT of drinks HAHA), and just caught up with stuff. Ohh, and Fatty went up on stage to sing! Hahahaha. And then when they played the song "Forget You" by Cee Lo Green, our whole table sang the REAL version. You know, F*** You. HAHAHA they were like staring at us!

Halfway through all this, the waitress suddenly brought a birthday cake. At first, I thought they sent it to the wrong table or something. But then I saw "Happy Birthday Rohith" on it, and I was stunned. The first thing that came to my mind was 'Hey, it's not my birthday..?!?!' LOL. But then I found out that it was like a belated celebration thingy.

We all camwhored like free after that, and I wish I can say more about what happened next, but..I CAN'T REMEMBER A THING! HAHAHAHA. I was like freaking high. Judging by the photos on facebook, I'm guessing I became retarded haha.

After everything, when going home, I dropped my phone in the cab LOL. Luckily I realised it like after a while, and called Fatty. She found it and kept it for me, saving me from imminent death LOL.

Anyways, last night was awesomely fun, and I really wanna do this more often! Super fun night man.

Well, today, when I messaged Fatty to thank her for last night and apologised for the amount they had to spend (because of the present plus cake plus dinner. And OMG I opened a bottle of Glenlivet 15 Years French Oak Reserve whisky, 200 BUCKS. If I knew that they were paying, I'd never have opened bottle), and this is what she replied:

"Hey fatty. Dont worry about the money. I guess the money didn't matter cause we've never gave you a proper celebration. I'm so glad you had fun and that is what matters most. Just so you know, the people there last night, they'll all be there if you need them to. I have not said this but my only birthday wish to you is that you'll quit smoking. Do it slowly, start by taking less puffs in a day. The Rohith I know is capable of anything when he really wants to put effort into it. Once again, happy belated birthday. Love you too! (: "

I'm seriously glad to have been blessed with awesome friends like her and the guys. To Fatty, Zu, HL, Nic, Rid and Eter, thank you all for being the best friends I could ever ask for. My life would be totally empty without you all. I love you all loads, and I pray this friendship lasts for life <3

Note: All the photos are on facebook, including the present. Go view them to see how awesome the night was LOL

Labels: reunion

Thursday, January 28, 2010 12:40 AM

I'm super freaking happy today. You know why? Cause I bought my Givenchy Play Intense! WOOOO! Sexy cover artist, sexy box, sexy smell; what more could I ask for? My parents weren't as happy though - they were $150 poorer. LOL. Anyways, here are some pics of the awesomely sexy Play Intense.