Soaring through the night.

friendship

2011-03-13T18:32:00.003+08:00

I know I know, blogging after super long. Well, I went out with QB yesterday till late, to go for the NTU Openhouse plus sorta celebrate her bday. Had an awesome time, and when I reached home, at about 3am, QB sent me this message:

"Okay serious. You know fatty, anyone and everyone who sent me birthday wishes got themselves a long reply from me by SMS. Yup, all except you. It's like no matter how hard I try drafting, the sms will never be adequate or perfect in expressing how much I appreciate you as a friend. So thank you, thanks for being there when I'm in need, being there even when I'm bored or even when I just need company. You are an awesome awesome person and I'm sure someday, she will see thru all those fats, the heart thats beating with kindness and love. Honestly, I had so much fun today. So much fun that I'll prolly smile whenever I think of today in future! Goodnight fatty! You're the best! (: "

When I received the message, I honestly felt a bit..weird? Not in a bad way though. And I kept thinking why it felt so weird. And then it hit me: in the 20 years I've lived, I've had my highs and lows, made my fair share of friends and enemies, given my all for my friends and been overlooked, neglected and stepped over by the same friends countless times, but this is the first time EVER that I've really REALLY felt appreciated and loved. And btw, see the bold part of the msg? I sure as hell hope she's right.

of laughter and smiles

2011-02-06T11:21:00.001+08:00

How many times do you find yourself faking a smile just so that everyone around you thinks you’re okay, when the truth is, you’re dying inside?

And do you realise that the people that smile and laugh the most are the ones who are suffering the most. Because laughter isn’t only the best medicine, it’s also the best disguise.
I should know.

Taken from my tumblr post.

heart.shattered.

2011-01-29T09:44:00.003+08:00

You know what's more painful than seeing the love of your life love someone else? It's seeing the love of your life break her heart because of that someone else.
And you know what's the only thing more painful than that? It's when you give her all your attention and try so hard to get her to move on by giving her all you've got, and build up hope in the process, and just when you think that maybe, just maybe, you've become that someone significant in her life, what you've been waiting so long to be, she makes up with that someone and totally shatters your hope, dream, and heart. This was a mistake. And I hate that I can't hate you.

isly

2010-12-25T02:50:00.000+08:00

You know what? I thought it was long over, but even after all this time, it's not. I still think about you all the time. I still crave for your attention. I still try so damn hard to make you notice me. I still stare at my phone anxiously all the time, waiting for you to reply. And I still smile at every single reply you text me. Heck, I smile at the mere mention of your name. And I'd still do anything just to make you smile.

And yet I know the fact is that while, to me, you're everything, to you, I'm just a somebody. I hate the very knowledge of this. I yearn for your presence, and I only wish that you'd think of me even 5% as much as I think of you. And after all this while (sorry Michelle, I know you're gonna scream at me), you know what? I'm still in love with you.

i heart my friends

2010-12-05T16:44:00.004+08:00

I'm blogging again after almost a year? LOL. Anyway, here's just a quick flashback of stuff that's happened:

A levels - I got B, C, D. Rejected by all 3 local unis. Trying again next year.

Life - I'm in army. In 1SIR. AKA: HELL. This is my 10th month. 14 more months to freedom!

Brunei - I'm going there in January, for Exercise - Lancer. Outfield in Brunei for 3 weeks, with 4 days of Navex with a 20kg load, climbing Mount Biang on another day, and outfield platoon training for the rest of the days. It's gonna be 3 weeks of hell. Seriously.

Friends - I've made lots of them in army. Awesome friends who've went through hell together. Outside of army, I'm glad to say that I'm still close to all my other friends; be it from JC or sec sch.

Ties - I've started talking to Eunice again. I know, it's a freaking HUGE move. But some things are just so valuable and important to me that it's best to keep them alive.

Addiction - Ever since I've enlisted, I've tried quitting smoking several times, and, well, I haven't been successful yet. Everyone keeps telling me to quit, and I wanna quit, but people don't recognise the difference between HABIT and ADDICTION. This is an addiction, and breaking it isn't as easy as people think it is. Ohh btw, my parents caught me smoking, so yea.

K I can't really remember other significant updates right now. And well, I'm booking in at 2130 later zzz.

BUT the real reason I'm blogging is to talk about last night. Last night, I went to Timbre@ Old School with the usual bunch. Fatty, HL, Zu, Nic, Rid, Eter. I thought I was organising the gathering, cos I sent out the messages and asked everyone to gather and stuff. But then I realised it was actually a secret belated birthday plot planned by Fatty LOL.

Anyways, we met up, had a few drinks (no wait, a LOT of drinks HAHA), and just caught up with stuff. Ohh, and Fatty went up on stage to sing! Hahahaha. And then when they played the song "Forget You" by Cee Lo Green, our whole table sang the REAL version. You know, F*** You. HAHAHA they were like staring at us!

Halfway through all this, the waitress suddenly brought a birthday cake. At first, I thought they sent it to the wrong table or something. But then I saw "Happy Birthday Rohith" on it, and I was stunned. The first thing that came to my mind was 'Hey, it's not my birthday..?!?!' LOL. But then I found out that it was like a belated celebration thingy.

We all camwhored like free after that, and I wish I can say more about what happened next, but..I CAN'T REMEMBER A THING! HAHAHAHA. I was like freaking high. Judging by the photos on facebook, I'm guessing I became retarded haha.

After everything, when going home, I dropped my phone in the cab LOL. Luckily I realised it like after a while, and called Fatty. She found it and kept it for me, saving me from imminent death LOL.

Anyways, last night was awesomely fun, and I really wanna do this more often! Super fun night man.

Well, today, when I messaged Fatty to thank her for last night and apologised for the amount they had to spend (because of the present plus cake plus dinner. And OMG I opened a bottle of Glenlivet 15 Years French Oak Reserve whisky, 200 BUCKS. If I knew that they were paying, I'd never have opened bottle), and this is what she replied:

"Hey fatty. Dont worry about the money. I guess the money didn't matter cause we've never gave you a proper celebration. I'm so glad you had fun and that is what matters most. Just so you know, the people there last night, they'll all be there if you need them to. I have not said this but my only birthday wish to you is that you'll quit smoking. Do it slowly, start by taking less puffs in a day. The Rohith I know is capable of anything when he really wants to put effort into it. Once again, happy belated birthday. Love you too! (: "

I'm seriously glad to have been blessed with awesome friends like her and the guys. To Fatty, Zu, HL, Nic, Rid and Eter, thank you all for being the best friends I could ever ask for. My life would be totally empty without you all. I love you all loads, and I pray this friendship lasts for life <3

Note: All the photos are on facebook, including the present. Go view them to see how awesome the night was LOL

2010-01-28T00:40:00.005+08:00

I'm super freaking happy today. You know why? Cause I bought my Givenchy Play Intense! WOOOO! Sexy cover artist, sexy box, sexy smell; what more could I ask for? My parents weren't as happy though - they were $150 poorer. LOL. Anyways, here are some pics of the awesomely sexy Play Intense.

The top of the box

One side of the box cover. Yup, you saw right. IT'S JT!

Other side of the box cover

The box itself, after removing the cover

Unboxing the bottle to reveal....

* drumroll *

The bottle! how effing sexy is it?!

And look at the cap! Freaking cool!

I'm a happy happy man.

Holga

2010-01-17T16:22:00.004+08:00

You know what this is?

Yeah, you saw right. HOLGA! WOOOOO!

135BC. Sexayyy right? HAHA! I'll upload pics once I develop them =)

pain

2010-01-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

I have food poisoning. Damn. For those of you who think food poisoning is just an ATAS way to say stomachache, trust me, you're totally wrong. It's like a million times worse, plus you don't have much energy left, plus you'll feel like crap for God knows how many days, plus you won't be able to think properly and thus can't really focus much (trust me, i'm struggling to write this), and worst of all, you'll be covered in rashes. Sucks to be me...

Anyways, the point of this post isn't to complain about how sucky my life is and expect a huge influx of pity. Trust me, i'm not THAT pathetic. Rather, it's to discuss PAIN.

We all hate pain, there's no denying that. Be it pain from a fall, pain from a cut, pain from illness or a disease, pain from screwed up results or even pain from a broken heart, it's an accepted fact: we all hate pain. And one thing we all have in common when we experience this array of pain is that we will always wish we couldn't feel pain. So, yea. Everyone hates pain, and we all wish pain didn't exist.

That being said, we need to realise the importance of pain. Do you realise that the very second that the pain stops and we become normal again, we feel awefully relieved and just so damn happy JUST TO BE NORMAL AGAIN? And do you realise that on days where we don't feel pain, we take this normalcy for granted and totally do not appreciate the fact that we're normal? That's just the thing; we NEED pain. We need it so we appreciate the fact that we're normal and healthy, that we're able to do whatever we please totally freely.

Pain is the very foundation of gratitude. After all, pain is what makes us human; what glorifies life. So, yea. We may hate pain to the core, but at the end of the day, we need it more than anything in life.

FB groups

2010-01-08T20:07:00.002+08:00

Has anyone noticed that Facebook now has like, millions of useless groups? Like, 'I check for L and R before plugging in my headphones!' , 'The first thing I do when I wake up is check my phone!' , 'I hate when the conversation dies', 'I hate exams!' and all the other STUPID AND REDUNDANT GROUPS. Newsflash to people who join these groups: NO ONE FUCKING CARES! STOP HOGGING UP MY UPDATES PAGE WITH YOUR BO LIAO-NESS PLEASE.

I mean, if you join a DECENT group like a remembrance group or something, like RIP Michael Jackson, that's fine ah. But why join some stupid, redundant group?! The fact is, ALMOST EVERYONE DOES STUFF LIKE THAT. It isn't unique or something to be proud of, it's simply AVERAGENESS. IT'S WHAT EVERYONE DOES. So PLEEASSEEEE, do all of us a favour and stop spamming our updates page with your joining of a redundant group. It doesn't look cool, it just tells me and the rest of the world that YOUR LIFE IS SO SUCKY AND BORING THAT JOINING A LAME GROUP IS SOMETHING TO BOAST ABOUT FOR YOU. Grow up, kids.

PS i love you

2010-01-06T19:34:00.004+08:00

I watched PS. I love you today. And I cried. Not because the story is touching or whatever, but rather because it's damn unfair. It's so freaking unfair that a person who loves someone so bloody much can just die, leaving that someone behind completely devastated and ruined, so much so that that someone can never really ever pick up the pieces and move on in life. Every step along the way, you'd just wish that person was back with you, and hopelessly wonder why that person died. And you start to curse and swear and ask why you couldn't just die too.

first day

2010-01-04T22:54:00.005+08:00

Today is Monday, the 4th of January 2010. Which makes this my first post of 2010. Today is also the first day of school for everyone, from primary school to poly, except JC kids. People who have graduated (AKA us), do you remember when we used to have school, and during the last few days of the December holidays we used to dread the first day of school?

We hated having to break our routine of sleeping super late and waking up even later.

We hated not being able to sleep 11 hours a night anymore.

We hated giving up the luxury to spend literally the whole day on the computer, from 11am to 4am.

We hated not being able to go our with our friends anymore.

We hated not being able to head to the cinemas every few days to catch the newest movies anymore.

We hated not being able to simply chill out at some cafe for hours and hours anymore.

We hated the fact that there would be no more class outings where the whole class would finally have fun that we never had in school.

We hated the fact that we had to start doing homework again.

We hated the fact that we once again have to study for tests and whatnot.

We hated the fact that stressful school life would resume once again.

We hated the fact that we had to 'clean' ourselves up once again, for school grooming checks.

You know what? This list has no end. It's infinite. Putting it simply, we just hated school.

And remember how we used to think how awesome it would be to graduate and NOT have to worry about school ever again, that we would be care-free, have infinite freedom, and basically have the best time of our lives? Now that we finally HAVE graduated, the truth is.....

We were SO RIGHT.

PS: MICHELLE, SEE! I UPDATED ALREADY!

screw you all

2009-12-22T10:59:00.006+08:00

You know, one thing I've recently noticed a lot of people posting in blogs and all are pictures of cigarettes arranged in some artistic manner, and most of the time, people who post shit like these aren't even smokers. You know what? Screw you all. You think you're damn fking cool, posting pics of instristically-arranged cigarettes, with some artsy quote beneath the pic to make you look cool and sophisticated? WAKE UP. You're all effing posers. Smoking is NOT cool. Cigarettes are NOT cool. You'll realise that when you reach a stage like mine, when I have to effing puff not to feel high or whatnot, but I have to puff JUST TO BLOODY FEEL NORMAL. When you reach my stage, when you're totally controlled by your pack and you feel fking uneasy, incomplete and totally screwed without your sticks, then you'll learn. You'll learn when you realise you're just paying for your own death. Fucking posers. Think it's so cool to post pics of cigarettes when you don't even smoke? Wait till you start smoking and realise you've lost control of your life to your pack, then see if you still got the balls to post pics of sticks.

salmon

2009-12-05T19:05:00.002+08:00

It's the hols and although the freedom's ohsosweet, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!! ARGHH. Anyways, I'm going to Bali tmr! WOOO. Gonna shop till I drop (hopefully?).

And...I'm gonna pan-fry some salmon soon! WOO! I'll post pics when it's done (only if it's good..?). BYEEE

live like we're dying

2009-12-02T21:34:00.004+08:00

The blog's officially open! Sorry invited readers, you guys aren't special anymore. HAHA! Kidding. I still love you guys.

Ohh and I started on Tumblr. Check me out @ lukeiamyourfather.tumblr

A LEVELS ARE OVER! WOO! FREEDOM. FINALLY.

Anyways, I wanna share a song with you all. Listen to this, and read the lyrics. You'll realise that the song summarises everything in life in 3 minutes. Worth your time, 100% guaranteed. And remember:

We've only got 86400 seconds in a day,

to turn it all around or throw it all away.

Sometime we fall down and can’t get back up

We’re hiding behind skin that’s too tough

How come we don’t say I love you enough

Till it’s too late, it’s not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come

We could make a feast from these crumbs

And we’re all staring down the barrel of a gun

So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would’ve done

Yeah… gotta start

Looking at the hand of the time we’ve been given here

This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin’ it

Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin

Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day

To turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say,

Gotta live like we’re dying

(Continued after the jump)

Well if you plane fell out of the skies

Who would you call with your last goodbyes

Should be so careful who we live out of our lives

So when we long for absolution, there’ll be no one on the line

Yeah… we gotta start lookin’ at the hand of the time we’ve been given here

This all we got and we gotta start thinkin it

Every second count on a clock that’s tickin

Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day

to turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say,

Gotta live like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh…

Like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh…

Like we’re dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day

to turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say,

Gotta live like we’re dying

You never know a good thing until it’s gone

you never see a crash until its head on

All these people right when we’re dead wrong,

You never know a good thing till it’s gone

Yeah… we gotta start lookin’ at the hand of the time we’ve been given here

this all we got and we gotta start thinkin it

Every second count on a clock that’s tickin

Gotta live like we’re dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day

to turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say,

Gotta live like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh…

Like we’re dying

Like we’re dying oh…

Like we’re dying

We only got 86 400 seconds in a day

to turn it all around or throw it all away

We gotta tell ‘em that we love ‘em while we got the chance to say,

Gotta live like we’re dying

coffee

2009-11-24T11:46:00.003+08:00

(photo courtesy of Flickr)
Coffee and cigarettes. One of the best old-school themed films around. You HAVE to watch it at least once in life. It's also what kept me going for my A's. One paper left, 6 days to study for it. Not intending to study, though. MCQ.

Ohh, and I may be moving to tumblr, courtesy of Edmund. LOL.

Till another day.

17 --> 18

2009-11-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

I'm turning 18 in less than 2 hours. Normally, when you turn 18, it's a cause for celebration. Well, I think it sucks. LOL. So i'm gonna list out the reasons why turning 18 sucks:

1. You will now be charged as an adult for anything you do. Bye-bye Boys' Town, hello Changi Prison. See you there, Edmund.

2. You lose so much cheap thrills. No more thrill of buying alcohol underage, buying cigs underage, being seen smoking/drinking, watching M18 movies, underage gambling, etc etc. NO MORE FUN! Crap man.

3. Your are OFFICIALLY LIABLE to serve National Service. The army owns me now. GG

4. MY BIRTHDAY = EXACTLY 1 WEEK FROM THE 1ST A LVL PAPER!! ARGHHHH

Yup. Turning 18 sucks. LOL. And seriously, what's the fun of drinking/smoking if you're LEGALLY ALLOWED to?!?! I think this serves as motivation for me to quit. Adulthood sucks. I WANNA BE A KID FOREVER!!! ARGHZXCXZXXZXCXZ

K so in my final act of being a kid, I wanna dedicate this song to everyone reading. I never really understood the meaning of this song, until I realised today that I REALLY Won't Be Seventeen Forever:

Liberation

2009-10-17T10:10:00.002+08:00

As of the 16th of October 2009, I've officially rid myself of religion. Well, it was bound to happen. I've been questioning religion since like Sec 3? So, yea. But i'm not an Atheist in the sense that I'm not dismissing God. I'm Agnostic. Religious people think they know that a God exists. Atheists think they know that a God does not exist. I quote - "If you think of religion and Atheism as the north and south poles, Agnosticism is the equator." It neither refutes nor accepts the belief of a God. I mean, come on. I don't know and you don't either. So why bother? I'm liberated =)

cig

2009-10-06T13:59:00.001+08:00

I think i'm addicted. But why now? Why not 3 years ago? F lah. I need to kick the habit. NOW. 8 a day is NOT healthy. HELP, SOMEONE. Seriously.

saadiah

2009-09-15T17:50:00.002+08:00

2 Marlboro reds today, after not touching for 18 months. Never touched since I drifted from James Francis and all.

All cos of what Saadiah said. "From the start of the year, I always believed you have the potential to get an A for Econs. You were always one of the brightest ones in your class. But your ego and complacency has killed you. And now, you have no time left, even if you want to improve. Now, I can tell you directly, you're not going to get your A. With any luck, you'll get straight C's. This goes for your other subjects as well. I can tell you right now that you're going to get 40 to 50 points, and end up in SIM. It's up to you to prove me wrong, although I don't think you can."

I'm gonna bloody prove her wrong. Gonna chiong like free till my A's, and hope for the best. Watch out World, Rohith has stood up.

And bloody idiot Edmund, why didnt you ask for the 2 sticks from me ytd. You suck man

prelims

2009-09-05T23:34:00.003+08:00

Got back Math, Chem, Econs P2, Physics and GP Prelim results.

Math: 45.5/100 [E] (U for Mid Yrs)
Chem: 45/100 [E] (S for Mid Yrs)
Econs P2: U (U for Mid Yrs)
Physics: 43.5/100 [S] (U for Mid Yrs)
GP: 44.5/100 [S] (B for Mid Yrs)

As you can see, I've improved in my H2s in general, and deproved A LOT FOR GP. Let's go 1 by 1 eh.

Math. I put in A SLIGHT BIT of effort for Math as compared to none at all for Mid Yrs, and it paid off. So this shows that I should put in even more effort. An E's gonna get me nowhere zzz

Chem. WTF lah. I put in effort can. Mid yrs was damn hard, and I didnt study at all, and I totally expected a U, but somehow I got an S. Prelims, I studied SOME STUFF ah. And the paper was easier. And I totally expected at least a C. And I got a bloody E. K lah fine, I admit. I only studied organic chem ah, and that too, very briefly. But still, at least I studied A BIT right? And yet I improved by less than 5%. WTF? Why bother studying zzz

Econs. 1st essay, 13/25. 2nd essay, 9/25. 3rd essay, 2/25. Need I say more?

Physics. K lah I must admit. I didn't study at all, and should be grateful to get the S. But still, S isn't gonna get me anywhere.

GP. Fuck lah. You know, I got a B for Mid yrs, and was 95.8 percentile? Meaning to say 95.8% of the entire college was below me for GP. GP has always been my BEST subject. The subject I have always had the most confidence is. The subject that everyone envied me for. My favourite subject. And I got a fucking S. WTF lah. A drop from a B to a bloody S. I knew I was gonna screw up GP lah, cos I wrote out of point for my essay and didnt complete super a lot of qns for compre courtesy of RA's GENIUS STRATEGY, but I expected a low pass at the very worse lah. Like a D or sth. And yet I got an S. WTF lah.

The feeling for GP sucks the most, because GP WAS my pride and joy. It was my niche subject. My forte. And I fell, not just by a bit, but by A TREMENDOUS AMOUNT. From a B to an S. It feels just like a king losing his crown and turning into a pauper, all in a split second. Fuck lah

In total, I got 25 points excluding PW and MT. Which means I wouldn't even promote, forget about going to uni. 8 weeks to A levels, and I'm totally not prepared. What are you tryna do, Rohith? Wake up, damnit. If not now, WHEN?

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Edit: I've removed a lot of links. And I've removed a lot of readers. So now, only 4 people can read my blog. So if you're one of the 4, congrats.

daiso incident

2009-07-12T22:28:00.003+08:00

Life's been...wave-like? Highs and lows. Learning to make it just super high by ignoring the lows and FUCKED UP PEOPLE (HINT HINT) arnd. LOL. People who know me would know who I'm referring to. Sorry, but you're just a bitch. Hahahaha. I think i'm damn high.

K so anyways, just gonna blog about my convo with Ed about SOMETHING I WON'T SAY HERE. Don't worry Ed, your secret's safe! LOL. Anw, here's how it went:

Rohith says:
* BOY, 18, CAUGHT FOR STEALING LOW-PRICE ITEM IN THRIFT STORE, AND CONCEALING IT IN A BAG FROM AN EXPENSIVE SHOP. "Queue very long!" says thief

EDmund says:
* "saved us 10mins you know!" said thief's friend, who is the owner of the Braun Buffel paper bag

Rohith says:
* nope
* "i dunno this guy", says boy spotted with thief
* LOL

EDmund says:
* "But this guy can never afford that wallet. Therefore they must be partners!" exclaimed Plaza Singapura head security officer.

Rohith says:
* LOL
* then next page:
* "Bank ATM fraud exposed: how an 18 year old laundered money from a top Singapore bank"

EDmund says:
* "I still thought there's around SGD$2000 in his account!" said boy's father disapointedly

HAHAHA. For those you don't know what we're talking about, I don't blame you. Inside joke.

school tmr

2009-06-28T12:50:00.003+08:00

SCHOOL STARTS TMR!

K, what did I INTEND to do during the hols?
1. Do all my hw.
2. Run SUPER frequently.
3. Revise ALL THE WAY. No breaks or what, just revise.

And what did I ACTUALLY do?
1. Run for 2 weeks.
2. Not touch my homework ONE BIT.
3. Slack all the way at home, playing SF with Edmund.
4. Not revise AT ALL. Never even take my lecture books out of my cupboard.

So basically, I slacked my holidays away at home mainly. And I was like, 'WTH I JUST WASTED MY TIME!!'. Then I read this on Edmund's blog:

" Time you enjoyed wasting, isn't actually wasted.

Mugging hard for an exam and totally flunking it.
Now THAT'S wasting time. "

I didn't waste my time =)

RIP MJ

2009-06-26T23:24:00.004+08:00

I'm posting today after super long, only for a single person: JACKO.

You were my childhood idol and inspiration.

You possessed a voice that is UNMATCHED up till today.

You started TREMENDOUS amounts of trends that are followed till today even.

You created a new style of dance altogether.

You totally changed the face of Pop music.

You were the FIRST EVER African American to appear on MTV.

You released songs that stayed on in one's mind and heart for eternity, such as Billy Jean and Beat It.

You became the King Of Pop almost immediately upon debut, with Thriller still being the most successful album EVER released in the world.

You were the motivation for OHSOMANY aspiring artists, who went on to have succesful music careers, only because of you.

You inspired MILLIONS of individuals to pursue their dreams.

You touched the lives of every single person in the WORLD (I dare to say this with confidence), just by your voice.

You preached about World Peace and love for your fellow men through songs like Heal The World and Black Or White, while the rest of the world was singing about money, sex and violence.

You held your ground when numerous filthy, ludicrous accusations were blatantly and falsely thrown at you and thousands criticising you, whilst being backed by the BILLIONS who absolutely trust you.

You were the idol of MILLIONS.

You still are.

R.I.P. Michael Joesph Jackson, August 29 1958 - June 25 2009

The King Of Pop.

You Will Live On.
If not for Yourself, then for Us.

newnewnew

2009-05-29T21:23:00.004+08:00

Posting after 29 days. The blog's gonna close sooner or later. Lost the drive. K imma highlight just the key stuff:

1. Screwed my mid yrs REAL BAD. Expecting 20-30 points, including PW. Only myself to blame.

2. Have this dream to spend my June hols studying to catch up. Sadly, I doubt it's gonna come true.

3. Went for my NS medical, got PES BP. 17 weeks. Need to lose 16kg by December to get into PES B. AWWW C'MON MAN.

4. In lieu of what I said above (the 16kg thing), I've decided to start running again. Started yesterday and ran 6k with Ed. Today lazy, never run. Gonna run tomorrow again, though.

5. As you would've probably realised by now, I've privatised the blog to keep out all the uninvited spectators, silent readers and bloody hypocrites who read your blog and use your content against you. And trust me, a lotta people do just that.

6. ONCE AGAIN, I've grown to hang out with new friends, for the billionth time since entering JC. This time, it isn't cause I wanted to meet new people, but rather cause the 1 person I thought was close to me found new people. So I found new people too. idontneedyoubye

7. I have this feeling of emptiness inside me. Don't ask.

8. YOU. Fuck off lah

9. Jodi Picoult is a DAMN good author.

FIN.

chem test

2009-05-01T20:14:00.004+08:00

LOOK AT THE PICTURE.

STARE AT IT.

STARE RIGHT INTO IT.

DO NOT BLINK.

LOOK AT IT AGAIN.

KEEP LOOKING.

SCRUTINISE EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT.

ABSORB IT.

TAKE IT ALL IN.

ALL AT ONCE.

LOOK AT IT AGAIN.

No, you're not dreaming. On the 22nd of April 2009, in Serangoon Junior College, Hougang Ave. 2, in the north region of a tiny island city named Singapore located in South-East Asia, Rohith Misir of class 2S16 passed his first Chem test. EVER.

damn

2009-04-20T20:54:00.000+08:00

WANTED: A friend. Urgently.

cri du cœur

2009-03-20T20:30:00.003+08:00

Blogging after 20 days. Why am I not surprised.

Went for dinner with Dan and Edmund last night after shopping with my parents.

SHOPPING: We went loads of places. In the end, I bought a few shirts and new jeans from Levi's and new flip flops to replace my screwed up Birkenstocks.

DINNER: Met Dan at Kovan. We walked from Kovan all the way to Serangoon Gardens for dinner at ChompChomp. 45-minute walk. After dinner, we walked around Gardens. Popped into Cold Storage Specialty and looked through the isles for almost an hour. We kept saying how the stuff there can't be found in our normal Heartland supermarkets and it's only meant for "rich Gardens people and not poor people like us". We said this over and over again loudly in the store in front of so many people (it was supposed to be a joke). Was great finally going out with them. Edmund is just plain retarded, so yea. Dan is Dan. You know, the kind you can just pour everything out to. The kinda guy you can talk hours and hours with and still wanna talk more. Seriously miss hanging out with them.
On my way home, I realised how true it really was, that although people like us are considered "middle-class" to many, the truth is that we're actually poor beside the people living in Gardens. It was like Gardens was a totally different world, and we're inferior and unworthy of being in Gardens. And that's just sad.

Well, these few days have made me realise lots of things that I never realised before, some of which include:

1. There is a huge income gap that exists in Singapore. And, wow. I once thought I was pretty alright, middle-class and all. Now I realise I'm a nobody, living in a rich man's world. Joie de vivre? You wish.

2. I'm gonna screw up my A levels. Whilst the rest of the world is studying like crazy for their A's, I'm just wasting my life away, sitting around doing nothing.

3. I'm a sloth. I sit around doing nothing at all for large periods of time, while the rest of the world is making better use of their time.

4. I finally have a dream in life: NUS BBA. And yet I'm doing nothing to work towards this dream, and I'm watching this dream slowly fade away before my very own eyes. And I'm still doing nothing.

That's basically it. Ohh, and I've decided that I'm not gonna down-PES, and instead go all-out for NS. Am I gonna regret it? Let's just wait and see. Ohh, and I'm gonna make it big in life, so I can see my kids grow up in Gardens and not WATCH PEOPLE grow up in Gardens. Bye now.

Life's just screwed. So much stuff's happening, all at the same time, and I just can't react. I'm watching myself fall time and time again, and yet I just can't do anything to help myself. But then again, sometimes, you just need a friend to listen to you rant, and all your problems will just pour away. The problem is, I have no one to rant out to. It's either I don't trust the people I wanna rant out to, or the people I can trust are all busy, so I can't rant it out. And when they're free, I still don't rant out to them simply because I'm guessing they don't give a damn, which is true to a large extent. After all, who wants to just sit down and listen to someone's problems? So what do I do? Simple. Put up a facade and act as though everything's alright. Damnit. And yet I find myself crying myself to sleep every night. Cri du cœur.
Life is bloody dumb sometimes. C'est la vie. Oh, and I'm over you.

popeye's

2009-03-01T00:31:00.005+08:00

Went back to sch today for physics. It was..boring? Haha. SORRY EUNICE, QIANBI AND HUILING FOR PS-ING YOU GUYS FOR BREAKFAST! Haha. Had to do work.

Anyways, stayed back with Qianbi and Huiling to 'study'. Ended up going online instead. After like 1 hr of stoning, started doing my work. Chem assignment. Only managed to do 1 qn, though. Oh well, better than nothing eh.

SR lost AJC 2-1, despite the fact that they owned the bloody match all the way. AJC was bloody lucky, according to Bala. For some reason, SR always has this same problem. They own the whole match, but lose. Same thing happened last time against SA. Dunno why. Anyways, congrats Bala, for scoring SR's only goal! LOL. He seemed super happy today cos of it.

Anyways, went to the airport just now to send off my uncle who flew in just for my cousin's wedding. Ate at Popeye's after that. Bought Freddo to stock up in my locker. That makes the contents of my locker as follows:
1. Kitkat
2. Milo
3. Freddo
Yup that's the only stuff in my locker. Everyday, it seems it's turning into something more like a fridge rather than a locker. LOL

Oh yea. I've been screwing my own mind by thinking about NS for the past few days. Cos my medical is in May, like 2 months away? Damnit. And I'm in a dilemma now. Do I go into NS giving it my all, and serve 17 weeks of torturous BMT in the process (going in like, 4 days after my A lvls), or do I Down-PES to PES C and just go for like, 7 weeks of slacking? Cos the thing is, why should I go all out for something I consider a waste of time, and protect a country that I feel nothing for? Why should I care for a country that doesn't care for me? I'm a hopeful future Aussie, anw, so I shouldn't really care. Screw NS. Being a guy in Singapore sucks man. You waste 2-3 yrs of your life.

I've been super high these past few days, which basically amounts to me annoying everyone I see and being super random, like this:

ॐ rohith is sick, for the third time this yr..grr says:
can you do me a favour?

ibrahim =) says:
er

ibrahim =) says:
wat ting?

ॐ rohith is sick, for the third time this yr..grr says:
go for plastic surgery..you're hurting my eyes

ibrahim =) says:
?!?!?!?!

Me being in such a state is a good thing, btw. LOL.

Carling Cup final tmr! Can't wait man. 1 step closer to the treble. LOL.

Gonna sleep now. BYE.

I wonder if she knows she's all I think about at night

chem lect. test

2009-02-27T23:22:00.004+08:00

I've been staying in school till 9pm for the whole of this week (till 10pm today) to 'STUDY', so I've been offline all the way Since Sunday. Yup. Gonna talk about life. As usual. LOL

Life is...good? I guess. Hectic and super stressful, but good. Well, I still don't understand a single thing about organic chem and am dying in math, but I finally started to bother paying at least A BIT of attention in class this week. And I guess it's helping a little? I understand at least a little stuff now.

GP is officially my favourite subject from now onwards, for the following reasons:

1. Mr Raymond Andrew OWNS!! He's the coolest teacher I've ever seen lah, although he constantly threatens to throw me outta the window cos of various reasons. LOL. I'm actually considering doing sth in the School of Arts & Social Science (Shut up, Eunice. LOL) to be a GP tutor in the future

2. GP is super interesting. It's the only time ever that you get to have intellectual discussions with your classmates and tutor about important stuff that's going on in the world, and it makes me FEEL smart, cos of the fact that I actually know what's going on in the world, and my linguistic capability and ability to argue is better than most others around me (NOT trying to be BHB here)

3. 29/50 for my essay test!! WOO THAT'S RIGHT, 29!! And I'm top in class! WOO! And Mr Andrew calls me his "top student", which makes me feel damnnn good, even though it's quite childish. LOL

I found out lots of stuff this week.
Firstly, I'm top in class for GP! K I know this is getting irritating, so I'm not gonna say it anymore. LOL.
Secondly, I found out from the Principal's Dialogue that I'm top in my class based on promos. Which FINALLY made me realise why all my teachers have overly high expectations from me as compared to my other classmates. Dunno if this is good or bad, haven't decided yet.
Thirdly, my chem tutors, both Ms Khiew and Ms Cheng, seriously care for us, to the extent that Ms Khiew actually sat down and talked to me and Qian Bi for like 1 hr plus on Thursday night, revising with us various concepts even though she doesn't teach J2, giving us tips on how to pass the test and also advice on JC life and how I need to wake up now, or risk spending the rest of my life looking back and regret everything I didn't do. And I think it actually got to me.
Fourthly,... i'll talk about this later

For the record, I screwed up my lecture test.

Oh, and staying till late has been like, a waste of time? I've been slacking my time away. Hey, maybe I'll eventually start studying? Dunno. I'll try putting in more effort on Monday.

I have physics tmr at 10 with Mr Nordin. Going for breakfast with 1S23 ppl before that. I guess I'd better sleep, then.

Ohh yea, the fourth thing. Eunice knows. Well, I've kept on denying it, but she knows. And I have no idea how. Anyway, I'm gonna tell her the complete story (from WAAAAYYY BACK), cos I guess she's gotta know one of these days anyways. Already told her like, half of it.

I don't know what's going on. No matter how much I try getting close, you just move further away. And when I saw you today, my mood fell all the way from high to empty instantly. Even after knowing about HIM for so long, I still can't let this feeling go, and I don't know why. What was I thinking, dreaming of something that would never happen cos of HIM. Sweet dreams. Sweet dreams that won't come true.

wedding & reception

2009-02-22T00:25:00.003+08:00

Just got back from my cousin's wedding reception. And my reaction is still WHOA.

K i'm gonna talk about the actual wedding first. It was on tuesday. It was kinda cool ah. We (the guy's side) gathered somewhere near the wedding hall and came in in typical BHANGRA style! Woo super cool man! I always love Desi weddings. It's when you have the most fun in your life. Anyway, we came in Bhangra style, leading our cousin into the hall. And you know what? He was riding a horse all the way into the hall! How cool is that?! Woo it was super fun man. Ohh did I mention Bhangra? LOL

Anyways, I just got home from the wedding reception. It was at the Grand Hyatt Singapore's Grand Ballroom. And believe me, Grand is such an understatement. It was ohsototallyawesome. The ambience was FANTASTIC. The cocktail reception was classy. The ballroom was SUPER GLAM. The food was explicitly scrumptious (prepared by Master Chef Raj Malhotra, they had to book him 18 months in advance!). And the desserts were super duper sinful. And now I feel super fat and guilty. Mr Teng is gonna kill me if he finds out how much I ate. And the reception itself, was just awesome man. I seriously cannot describe it here. I'll blow the word limit by like a trillion words. So, yea. Let's just leave it as being SUPER DUPER POSH. But then again, what's so surprising, considering that my cousin got a Volvo XC70 for his 21st birthday? GRRRR. OMG I sooooo want his life man.

Anyways, here's wishing Ravi and wife (SORRY I FORGOT HER NAME) the best of wishes for your new married life! May your love stay ever true, blossoming with time. Stay beautiful, guys!

Oh my dad took this photo after we got back from the wedding on tuesday. Thought it looked cool, so I thought I'd put it up. A lotta cousins and uncles said I looked damn fierce on the wedding day, like some mafia guy. Omg I love the mafia look man! LOL

Oh yea it's officially my sister's 24th birthday now. Man, we're all getting super old eh.

Loads of relatives who flew over just for the wedding are coming over to my place tomorrow for dinner. It's gonna be a busy day man. So I guess I better turn in now. BYE!

SH

2009-02-16T23:23:00.003+08:00

" the games were magnificent.. i thought the overall games were better than amazing race and station games combined.. =) "

This is taken from Daniel's blog, about Scavenger Hunt. I cried when I read it. I'm crying as I type this, in fact. I dunno why. Maybe it's cos I've been telling myself SH went well just cos I've been trying to make myself feel better, and when I found out that people actually really think it went well, it really moved me. Well, I'm damn glad people actually found it good. And, thanks Mr Fat, for always being supportive. I know I can always count on you =)

Anyways, I think I'm gay, cos crying is gay. Fine, maybe it's not gay, but I'm too egoistic to be seen crying. To the reader: NEVER MENTION THE ABOVE TO ANYONE.

Resumed lessons after 2 weeks today. The feeling is like, super weird? Cos we're all still in the orientation mood. OMG I miss orientation man! Even the planning part. I think I wanna be like an events manager when I grow up, so I can spend my whole life planning stuff like orientation.

Anyways, Council's study program started today. Stayed back till 9pm to study. And you know what? It's actually really good. I'm actually doing work, for the first time everrrrr. I feel like such a mugger now. LOL

And I think I'm a changed person. Cos over the past few days, SO MANY people have been telling me I'm different. Hmmm. Some people say I'm better cos I'm more approachable, but some people say I'm worse cos I seem super moody. Damn weird. Both condradict each other. The best thing is, I don't even realise it. What's wrong with me? God knows. But I know I'll get better, cos I'm strong. Why? Cos I have MONTFORT running through my veins. AGE QUOD AGIS =)

Oh yea, you know the engagement I missed out cos no one told me? The wedding's tmr. I was finally told about it, 5 MINUTES AGO. Well, at least I know, and I'm going. WOO

Sch tmr. Sian. Don't wanna go! I'm doing traffic, somemore. Grr.

Talk to me, please

END OF ORIENTATION

2009-02-14T00:33:00.004+08:00

Gonna blog about today and yesterday.

YESTERDAY:
Last day of orientation! I was worried sick for my Scavenger Hunt. In the end, it went GREAT! I'm damn proud to say it was probably the best game for Orientation 2009, and the 5 BLOODY LONG MONTHS of hardwork, planning and simply put, BLOOD, SWEAT AND TEARS actually paid off!! It honestly feels really good to see something you put so much effort in turn out not successful.

Well, these are the reasons why Scavenger Hunt went so great:
1. Constant and regular modification and upgrading of my Scavenger Hunt proposals to strive for perfection
2. Learning from the mistakes as well as good points of the other games and changing my proposal accordingly and applying it to Scavenger Hunt
3. Super efficient IC...not
4. All the help rendered by friends, be it physical help or simply emotional support. Thanks loads guys!

Anyways, the 5 months of suffering has finally paid off, and the end of Scavenger Hunt signals the start of the Grand Finale! Sneaked in front and cheered like crazy for Cetus. In the end, Orion won Orientation 2009! =(((

NAHHHH can't be...The real winner was...CETUS!!! WOOOOOOO!!!! Was super high when Cetus won lah, felt like every single bit of effort I put in for Cetus paid off.

So basically, YESTERDAY WENT GREAT!

TODAY:
Finally headed back for lessons today. Sian. Had phy test at 7.15 in the morning first. Guaranteed to fail. Ms Cheng couldn't take me anymore, so I've been banned from Chem SPA experiments. Grrr. During our long lunchbreak, went to Kovan for lunch. Ate a bit too long? We cabbed back to school just so we'd be in time for Chem STAR. All the SRJC-ians at the bus stop at Kovan were like wondering why we were cabbing back to SR. Felt quite dumb. $3 taxi fare. LOL

After lessons, council. Quite okay I guess. Supposed to go temple for my cousin's engagement. Didn't go in the end, cos no one in my family bothered telling me. But hey, what's new? So instead, went for dinner with Ibrahim, Tatloong, Valerie and Vivienne at NYNY. Dinner was not bad. A crab got mutilated. Well, that's basically it.

OHHHH Happy 18th Birthday, Valerie! And Happy Valentine's Day!

Realised that I've been having random mood swings over the past few days, even today. So the people who have fallen victim to these mood swings, PLEASE bear with me. I'll try my best to control my own mood.

Thank you God, for helping me all the way, and giving me the strength and courage to survive orientation, either directly or through taking the form of the great friends I had around me, supporting me all the way.

I'm falling asleep over my laptop now. Super tired. and I'm falling asleep on my laptop. Bye. Oh, and Cetus owns. So does Scavenger Hunt.

Saw the rose yesterday, and it spoilt my mood. Treated you like crap in the afternoon by ignorinng you and stuff, and it yet again spoilt my mood. I want to get on with life. Someone tell me what I'm supposed to do. And I love you, God.

ORIENTATION DAY 3

2009-02-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

Today was... dunno how to put it. Cleared up some last minute Scavenger Hunt and all. Finally went back to classes. Damn.

After school, went to the council booth to sell council to the freshies. Managed to convince quite a number of people to join council. Proud cos of that. OH I got Sayeed to sign up! He reminds me so much of myself last year. I KNOW he'll be a great councillor. I can just feel it. And he has interest in public speaking and events management, so yea. He'll do great. Good luck bro!

After council, the thing that was building up finally erupted. Everything came out today. Settled? Not quite. Well, at least all of it came out, and nth's left hidden. And I may very well lose my badge tomorrow morning. God knows.

Scavenger Hunt is TOMORROW. And we're STILL changing stuff. And I'm totally freaking out. I'm super scared that it'll screw up tmr. I'm praying super hard that it'll go well. I put my heart and soul into it dammit. More than 5 months. I have no idea what I'll do if I screw up. And I don't wanna find out.

Isn't it just so weird that the day my game finally goes on may very well be the day I get kicked out from council? Nevermind, I already anticipated it, and I don't care anymore. The way I see it, it was just a matter of time. Am I disappointed? No. Do I have any regrets for what I did? No. C'est la vie.

Well, I'm gonna get some shuteye now. Bye.

Everything may have come out, but if you ever make her cry again, I swear to God I'll kill you.

Matrix Done

2009-02-10T21:25:00.003+08:00

Finally done my matrix. Checked through a lotta times, so it's guaranteed to work (I hope?). And edited my proposal and sent it to the council already. So Scavenger Hunt is more or less fully completed. Finally.

Thought about what Tatloong said, about how orientation is for the freshmen and not the OGLs, so made up my mind on what I'm gonna do to Orion tomorrow.

Decided not to do my hw. Screw it. See what the teachers do tomorrow.

I can feel Scavenger Hunt coming alive, and I'm super scared and nervous. I'm gonna just start crying and crying if SH doesn't go well. Praying hard.

Goodnight. My bed awaits.

Orientation Day 2

2009-02-10T18:56:00.003+08:00

URGGH.

Today wasn't good. It really wasn't.

Started off in the morning with Pearl realising that her matrix for Station Games was screwed up. I offered her my matrix, and changed the headings and tweaked it a bit for her. I thought it would've gone great. I was so wrong.

After briefing the OGLs, Pearl realised that there was a problem with my matrix. She told me straight away, and I then went on to TRY and change it. And Station Games was screwed, all cos of me and my matrix.

So I then rushed to the council room to change my matrix. It was only upon reaching the council room did I realise how big the error in the matrix was. I BLOODY worked on the matrix for 2 MONTHS, kept on changing and ere-editing it, and when I finally thought it was perfect, I realised it was SO badly done. And that basically killed my mood. I just lost it, and I really don't know what I did next. I really don't. I guess I blanked?

Well, spent the next 3 hours or so trying to identify the main problem and trying to sort the matrix out. It wouldn't have taken this long, but I was in a severe state of hysteria and couldn't think rationally.

When I THOUGHT I finally solved the matrix issue, I decided to finally cool off and have some fun. So I walked around and saw the freshmen play Station Games. It was initially fun, till a few Orion OGLs started disrespecting all the councillors around that area, snatching the scoresheet from their hands and demanding that they give them more points than they deserve. Well, it happened to me too, but I decided to ignore. Then one of them snatched Tatloong's scoresheet and never gave it back. So I talked to Jaymond and told him the case. I told him to talk to his OGLs and stuff also. I took away 200 points from Orion also. Too harsh? I dunno. It was only fair, in my opinion.

Well, turns out that some of the OGLs were not happy about what happened and started making noise and stuff. So I decided to just go back to the council room and let them settle it amongst themselves.

Back in the council room, when I passed the matrix to Kathleen to look through it, she told me that there was an error that I overlooked. Previously, the error was that some CGs were playing the same game twice. After I corrected that, I actually gave rise to another problem; some CGs had to be at 2 different stations AT THE SAME TIME. That's when I lost it. I was tired, I was angry, I was brain-dead, I was hysteric, I couldn't think straight, and I had to redo the matrix. I totally broke down yet again. Tried to fix it again. Spent like, 2 hrs thinking of how to, but couldn't do anything in the end. I guess there was too much weight on my shoulders, and I just failed to act. So in the end, I just used SG's Day One matrix.

That basically sums up today.

I'm sorry Cetus, that I failed to carry out my House Councillor duties. I had to fix up my matrix and you guys got sacrificed in the process.

I'm sorry Tatloong and Pearl, that my matrix caused your SG to screw up. I really thought it would work, but I was so wrong.

I'm sorry Ibrahim, Vivienne and all the people who I shouted at, cursed, acted rudely to and blatantly ignored. I didn't even realise I was doing it till Ibrahim told me after I calmed down. Well, I really truly didn't mean to shout at you guys and stuff. It just happened. I'm really really sorry.

And I'm sorry for all the people who offered to help me do my matrix, only to have me turn them down rudely. I didn't mean to sound rude or act big or whatever. It's just that, I've been giving my all for Scavenger Hunt all the way for the past 3 months, sacrificing time, energy and sleep. And I did and re-did and re-re-did the matrix over and over again, only to watch it fail each time. And the sense of failure was so imminent in me today. I really felt that I completely failed Scavenger Hunt, and Council. So I wanted to fix the matrix by myself simply because I needed to prove to myself that I'm not a failure and can do something right. One thing. So I'm really sorry to turn you guys down.

Broke my "No profanities" resoulution SO MANY times today and yesterday both. Couldn't help it. Everything was falling apart right in front of me.

Well, I'm gonna go type out the matrix now. And then do the 3-day overdue homework I owe. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day. Fingers crossed.

Was rude to her today. Shouted at her. Ignored her all the way too. All cos of my stupid mind not being able to handle the situation. Feeling like fuck now.

GAMES ORIENTATION DAY 1

2009-02-09T21:12:00.003+08:00

Realised I've been blogging super frequently. Dunno why also.

Anyways, NON-ACADEMIC ORIENTATION FINALLY STARTED!

Today was fun I guess. Started off with the walk-in! I'm damnnnn proud of our Council man, I think we owned!

Was asked to do a few cheers in the hall. The freshmen are really good man. They actually bother responding to me. LOL.

Then, AR and SG started. Was stationed at Hand Entanglement for AR. Well, it was kinda messy. Or rather, A LOT messy. The matrix kinda failed, cos there were 19 groups playing, with 6 stations and 10 different timings. No permutation would have allowed for the matrix to work, so yea. DAMN YOU DRACO 8! LOL. Anyways, some people are simply too stupid to understand the situation, and blamed his fellow game-IC for everything, OPENLY, in front of all the OGLs, GFs and freshmen. Well, the fact is she put so much time and effort into it and did so much while you were slacking. Still got the nerve to criticise. Loser. Couldn't take his bitching, so went up to him and asked him to shut up and walked off. He stared at me. So I stared back. Then he left my station. Loser.

Loser got screwed during the first briefing at 2pm with Mr Ang. He criticised his Game-IC for everything again, then I shot back and said it was the best that could be done and he didn't even help. Then Ibrahim shot him back too. Then Tatloong. Then the other councillors. OWNAGE.

Told the GFs at my station to close the station slightly earlier than they were instructed to, cos I predicted no one else would come. I was right.

Cetus 3's score sheet went missing! Cetus lost about 300-400 points cos of it. So we're 3rd now instead of 1st, only cos of the single scoresheet. We owned everything else. NEVERMIND, we'll catch up tomorrow. COME ON CETUS!

I'm dead tired. Can honestly and openly say I did alot today. Did the cheers in the hall (was informed at the very last minute, so had to chiong there).
Then rushed to cetus and briefed some of the OGLs on my personal expectations of Cetus.
Then cleared Cetus admin mix-ups.
Then stayed at the station and helped out the GFs as and when they required help.
Then simultaneously kept contacting my Cetus OGLs to pass on instructions and to help them make their way to their various stations (I'm a responsible House Councillor you know! LOL).
Then came back to school for House Time.
Then helped the OGLs of various houses settle their cheers.
Then helped Cetus think of the Fashion Show idea.
Then skipped lunch in the process. Then ran around to all the LTs to call all the houses back to the hall.
Then FINALLY ate at about 5pm (WAS STARVING FROM 5AM TO 5PM LAH, 12 HRS! Skipped both breakfast and lunch. I damn dumb).
Then it ended.
AS YOU CAN SEE, there are a lotta "thens" above. This was done on purpose to emphasise what I did. LOL. Sry, I know a bit BHB. But hey, better than some idiots who kept slacking in council room right!

Looking forward to another FUN and TIRING day tmr man! C'MON SR!

I'm totally in the orientation spirit and mood man! Suddenly have this renewed pride in SR! LOL. More importantly, saw MOST of the council working super hard for the orientation. OUR orientation. And after the super long and tiring day today, we did the council cheer in the council room. And it was loud. REAL LOUD. Even louder than when we did it for our investiture. Despite the fact that all of us were dead tired. Why? LOVE AND PASSION. Simple. Every one of us knew how much blood, sweat and tears we put in for orientation, and we're seeing it come alive. I'm proud of MY council. Really proud. I love you guys. I love the 21st. My 21st.

Saw you fall today. And I fell too. Why? I have no idea. Did what I could to make you stand back up, and in the process let me get up too.

MATRIX

2009-02-08T20:46:00.004+08:00

Gonna talk abt yesterday and today. Get yourself a cuppa, this is gonna be boring.

Had to come back to school yesterday for physics. Came to sch early, at 7.45 (class started at 8). Since I was early, decided to pop by the council room. Maybe I made a mistake, cos SOME PEOPLE KEPT DAOING ME. GEE, I WONDER WHO? Anyways, left soon after, once Eunice told me she reached class already.

Class was super boring! Ended up messaging people within 5 mins. Stopped soon after, though. Mr Nordin saw me always looking under the table, and told me to take what I had under the table out. I didn't take my phone out, though. Took my sec 4 class jersey. LOL. Then Mr Nordin knew it was super fake lah. So he said "you mean to tell me you've been staring and fiddling with your shirt for 10 minutes?". I said yes. LOL. So he CONFISCATED my jersey, although he knew I was messaging. Haha. Stopped messaging from then onwards.

Went to council room after that, and ONCE AGAIN, A CERTAIN SOMEONE DAOED ME. It was super weird in the council room lah. Like only me and Ibrahim were making all the noise, and everyone else was super silent. Creepy.

Went to Selegie yet again (2 days in a row o.O ) after that with Ibrahim. Talked about life.

Went home, and basically slacked. One of my uncles from overseas dropped by my place in the evening. I didn't really know what or HOW to talk to him, so I went into my room and took out my Econs tutorial book, hoping to complete my homework. Did I? You know the answer. LOL. Spent all my time talking to people. Talked to Ibrahim and Valerie about STUFF, and talked to Eunice about super random stuff. How random? Well, let's see:

Me: EUNICE! You free now? Wanna go bomb HIS house?
Eunice: HAHA ok set give me 3 mins i'm configuring the final step for the completion of the bomb!
Me: Ohh ok! You do the intermediate step already or not?? The free radicals stabilise already??
Eunice: Stabilising, the free radical is currently undergoing elimination against the ion-dipole interactions but it's taking a while because it's overcoming the strong Van der Waals' forces of attraction. No worries my friend! All is good.
Me: K good! Don't forget to use the AlCl3 catalyst under UV light! If not the bomb will blow you up, cos the 2,3-tributyl-5-octahexahalogenoic acid will diffract and explode cos the waves it releases are in phase with constant phase difference and start from antinodes, and when they go through the slit, they'll diverge and cause a release of (68-i) ^ 3/2 gigajoules of energy, causing AD to fall and thus causing a fall in actual economic growth, ceteris paribus!

OWNAGE. She was stunned for like, 30 mins after that. Continued all this crap talk and talked about teachers and stuff.

Today. Woke up early in the morning cos I had to go to my cousin-in-law's (cousin's husband) house for prayers. SOMEONE finally stopped daoing me when I was there. LOL. When I got back, found out abt the Draco 8 thingy and TRIED to help them out with their matrix. Failed miserably, though. SORRY PEARL! Stupid freshmen who appealed out! Spoilt the days of so many ppl today. HMMPH. SHAME ON YOU PEOPLE! It's not easy to do a matrix, you know? Especially doing a matrix for CG vs CG games, with odd numbers of CGs. This is coming from someone who did nothing today. LOL.

Well, that's about it. Non-academic orientation starts tmr! WOO! Amazing Race and Station Games! GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! It's gonna be FUN! WOOO! AND VIVIENNE, HANG IN THERE! A WHILE MORE!

K i'm gonna shave now, then sleep. BYE!

Oh, and Ibrahim knows. You better not tell anyone, boy!

Saw something that spoilt my day completely yesterday. I had to see HIM. With HER. Made up my mind last night. I'M GONNA MOVE ON. MIND OVER BODY. And yet, I spent the whole day talking to her. Simply couldn't resist it. I'm like the weakest guy on Earth. Can't even control myself, when I wanna move on. My mind said no, but my heart pressed on. My mind is fighting a losing battle with my heart. Damnit, someone help me already.

HB

2009-02-06T21:39:00.003+08:00

Found out something last night that I really would have made do without. Something that crushed all hopes and dreams. Only 1 person knows what I'm talking about, so don't bother asking.

Did it affect me today? I'm not telling you.

Well, anyways, I was super high today. Played with fire in Chem SPA, to the extent that Ms Cheng confiscated the spirit lamp. And in chem lecture, shouted like free. Did lots of retarded stuff today. Found out Chris is a fun guy.

Did 2 full-length econs essays in 2 hours, for the lecture test corrections. How? P-E-R-S-E-V-E-R-A-N-C-E.

Not gonna talk about Council, cos there's nothing really to talk about.

After Council, me, Eterna, Tatloong and Ibrahim went to Selegie Soyabean. We talked about the stuff me and Eterna did to all the random people last year, and how we screwed every single person in some way or another. Sweet reminiscence. Good times.

Bye.

When I found out, I tried to be strong. I told myself "So what? It doesn't matter. I'll move on." And I did for the start of today. I didn't contact her in any means today. I wanted to distance myself from her totally, to get rid of the feeling I had. And yet I felt empty all the way, like a part of me was missing, and my heart was bleeding. In the end, she sent me a text, and I started talking, and it felt really calming for my soul. When I met her soon after, she asked me to do sth I really didn't plan on doing, but did it anyway cos my heart couldn't say no. Well, I'm super confused. I should have never fallen for her. My biggest mistake was listening to my heart instead of my mind. I knew I'd fail, and yet I took the risk and went for it, only to find out what I found out last night. I wanna listen to my mind now and move on, but my heart says stay still and wait for her. I need you now more than ever, God.

sick no more

2009-02-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

TODAY WAS GREEEATTT!!

Haha. Total contrast from the last 2 days. Lemme tell you why....

Firstly, my influenza suddenly disappeared! I dunno how, but it's gone!

Then in sch, I was super duper high. LOL. So high that I did 3 things that a sick person should NEVER do. LOL.

First, during PE, I ran 6km! Didn't tell Mr Teng I was sick, so I acted normal and ran 6km! After that, I was super duper shagged.

BUT directly after that, without resting, I played soccer finally! Played with Chris, John, Junming and 2 other guys, after Ibrahim and his class left. And I scored! WOOO

OHHH and the last thing happened before PE, during CT period. Mr Tan went crazy and started asking the Sarawak people to do the college dance, and then asked the teachers to do it too. I was with Bala, Nicholas, Ridley, Eunice and all, and we dared each other to ask some of the teachers to dance with us. So Bala asked Mr Teng, and I asked...MDM SAADIAH!!! HAHAHAHAHA. Asked her just to embarrass her, and guess what? She was embarrassed! LOL. But my class people took videos/pics. AHHHHH

Yup that was my day. LOL. Considering the fact that I'm technically still sick, I consider what I did...Intense? LOL. Dunno.

Anyways, on a more serious note, I have to write 2 essays and do my chem assignment, both by tmr. But I'm not gonna do them. Why? COS I'M GONNA SLEEP MUAHAHA. I seriously need sleep. So, yea. I'm gonna sleep directly after this post.

On an even more serious note, I learnt something that I'll take with me for the rest of my life. Illnesses are mainly in your mind. If you have the willpower to tell yourself you're alright, YOU'RE ALRIGHT. That's what I did today, at least.

P.S. VIVIENNE, STOP DAOING ME

P.P.S. VALERIE, I DIDN'T EVEN TOUCH MY PANADOL TODAY! WOO

Sick-er

2009-02-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

Felt worse today than yesterday. Just the influenza, I mean. The day went well.

Slept late last night. Doing hw. While feeling like crap. Wow.

Woke up today with a high fever. Popped 2 Panadols. Came to sch, remembered the money issue and it sunk in.

After that, at 9, we were in the hall preparing for college dance/anthem/cheer. The fever came back, and my head felt like it was gonna explode. Damn weird feeling. Popped 2 more Panadols.

During college cheer, I think I did some serious damage to my throat. Imagine screaming like an idiot when you have a super duper painful sore throat.

After that, went back to class. My math lecture notes are totally blank, cos I slept all the way in math lecture. Couldn't take it. It felt good sleeping finally.

During council, finally settled the money issue. Fever came back for the THIRD frigging time, and popped 2 more Panadols on my way out of school.

Went home, slacked, did some hw. Not gonna continue doing. Screw it, i'm just gonna take what the teachers wanna throw at me. It's one thing to stay up late doing hw on a normal day; it's another to stay up late for 3 nights in a row doing hw when you're sick. My body can't take it anymore. So I'm gonna sleep directly after this post.

I'm totally drained, both physically and mentally. and although I'm desperately trying to hide it, so many people have come up to me and said I seem different, and they think I'm like suicidal or sth.

Well, the biggest news of today: I'm broke no more, and I didn't even have to ask for anything. My dad walked into my room, picked up my wallet and opened it, and before I could even say anything, he asked me "What happened to your alllowance?". I just said "Mmmm", cos I was doing chem and didn't really bother with my allowance. He took out his wallet, put some money into mine, and told me to use it till the end of the week. Sometimes, I really underappreciate my dad. He does so much for me, and yet I'm blatantly oblivious to whatever he does and show no gratitude whatsoever. I'm gonna show him gratitude from now onwards. My dad rocks.

In case you couldn't tell, today was a good day.

The thing that's bringing me down isn't my illness but rather my mind. Some things are just bugging/creeping/scaring me TTM. And I thought about what Valerie said, and realised that whenever I deny her suspicion, I'm not lying to her but rather to myself. So I told her the truth, and that I don't stand a chance. She said I do. Deep down, she knows I don't. I'm chasing something that is never gonna happen. GOD HELP ME

BAD DAY

2009-02-03T20:33:00.002+08:00

Today sucked. Super bad day.

Firstly, slept for like, 3 hrs? Doing GP essay.

Then when I woke up, I was like, super sick. Wanted to just stay on bed and go see a doctor later in the day. But I forced myself up.

Well, regretted that decision when I went to sch. The first few lessons were okay, only the last few were super screwed up. Got another warning for not doing hw. At this rate, I'll be out of council by April.

Had GP test also. Slept for 1 hr, and rushed the essay for the remaining 30 mins. So I did an essay in 30 mins? No hope of passing.

After the test, had a meeting with Mr. Ang together with the other House Councillors and Games I/Cs regarding the orientation tee money. Cetus is missing $6.50, and there's no way to account for it. I wanna get things over and done with and just cover the $6.50 myself, but Mr. Ang said it isn't about the money, but rather accountability. And we're gonna get lectured tomorrow during council because of this.
I'm home now, and I won't be sleeping much tonight too. Got too much stuff to do.

Just got the NS registration letter. Have to apply for deferrment, or risk a jail sentence and fine. Which just made me realise how I have no freedom whatsoever in Singapore, and we're all gonna get stuck here being forced to serve a country you feel nothing for. And that sucks.

And I'm dead broke. Don't ask why. Thinking of a way to ask for an advance from my dad now.

And all this while, i've been sick and feeling like crap. Still am. I've been popping Panadols like free.

............

Well, it's days like this that make you think of stuff you wouldn't normally think of. I walked home, and used the long route. Meaning I took a long walk home. During the walk, I noticed my surroundings. For some reason, everything seemed slower and relaxed. Maybe it's cos of the bad day, or maybe it was just the influenza. But it felt good. REAL GOOD. And I walked super close to the road, cos I wanted to feel the feeling you get when a bus super close speeds by. The feeling that says life is super fragile, and 1 wrong move can kill you. It makes you feel so small and insignificant. For some reason, that feels REALLY GOOD on days like these. So, yea. Maybe it's a psychological thing. God knows.

One thing went well in school, though. There's this one guy I really don't like who got punished for screwing around in the Econs Lecture. Maybe today isn't such a bad day after all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIENNE

2009-02-02T22:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIENNE!!

18 finally eh. Haha. Hope you liked the shirt =)

Anyways, first day of orientation today! Saw all the freshies. BUT THEY'RE SUPER DAO! I said hi to a few of them, but they blatantly ignored me! ARGHH

Quite a few Montfort guys around. But they're all super ahbeng-ish. Urgh. Well, come to think of it, this new batch is full of ahbengs and ahlians! OMG. Were the polys like, full or sth? LOL. Well, give them 1 week to sort things out. After all the grooming checks and all, they're bound to end up like the rest of us. LOL.

BUT freshies = CROWDED SCHOOL! The whole school was super packed lah! I missed the few weeks of peace, with just the 700 plus of us! OMG. SUPER LONG QUEUES EVERYWHERE! AND no space left in the canteen! Not like it was really big to start off with anyway.

Well, then again, I was a freshie a year ago, so who am I to complain. I guess it's just a vicious cycle. They'll know what I mean next yr. LOL.

Anyways, as seen at the header, Vivienne's bday today! Haha. Went for dinner at Pastamania with her and Tatloong. BEGGED AND PLEADED with Tatloong like free just to make him go. In the end, after Vivienne left, he told me that he planned to go all the while, but he said he didn't want to just to see my reaction, cos he thinks/suspects, ... *I CAN'T SAY HERE *

Well, thats about it. Have to chiong GP essay, Econs essay, Math tutorial and Chem tutorial by tmr. WISH ME LUCK!

It burnt my pocket, but just watching your reaction made it all worth it =)

ORIENTATION IN 5 HRS!

2009-02-01T18:28:00.003+08:00

HALLO!
OMG i'm super super nervous/anxious. ORIENTATION IS GONNA START TOMORROW! WOO! Well, i'm bracing myself for orientation and preparing. Also, on a separate issue, I prepared the box already! And made the card also! WOOO! I can't wait for tomorrow. Haha.

On a random note, Eunice is ONE weird person. LOL. Was on the phone with her for about an hour just now? And she was super LAME/RANDOM/RETARDED/BLEAH. Haha. It's like, she can NEVER get serious? LOL. I just cut her line in the end. You wanna know how retarded she is? This is ONE of the thousand things she said:

Eunice: Where are you?
Rohith: Here.
Eunice: There?
Rohith: Yea.
Eunice: Oh ok!

RETARDED

jvnp

2009-01-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

There's this thing in my head now, and I can't get it out. So today, I won't talk about how stuff went but rather about this thought of mine.

Is there REALLY such a thing as a platonic relationship? That's something really really bugging me right now. I'd like to think otherwise, but CERTAIN influences around me *cough* valerielimzhiyou *cough* are making me think that there's no such thing as a platonic relationship, and simply PSYCHOING me into believing that what I consider to be a platonic relationship, might just turn out to be real. SHUT UP, VALERIE!

Well, I'll just leave my life in His hands, and time will tell.

In the mean time, you wanna see a perfect couple?

NOTE: IDENTITY PROTECTED

bye bye, SG

2009-01-26T13:50:00.003+08:00

Lazy Monday. SIGH.

Yesterday was... ?? Dunno how to put it.

Well, WERE supposed to go shopping before reunion dinner, and I WAS SUPPOSED TO FINALLY BUY MY WALLET. But did we? NO. Why? My siblings were too bloody lazy to get ready. So my plans were ruined, just cos of them. I wanna say sth, but my new yr resolution is holding me back.

Argued with mum over my brother. My fault. It always is what. My brother is older than me so he HAS to be right all the time, and i'm younger, so I HAVE to be wrong all the time right? So, yea. MY FAULT. We're not talking now.

Well, the first part of the reunion was boring? Cos of the 2 incidents above. Not in the mood to mingle around, so I just sat alone in the corner in the living room watching TV. After a few hrs, after we ate, I started talking FINALLY.
Talked to my cousins. Well, found out we have so much in common. All of us agree that Singapore life is too stressful, and we're gonna spend our lives working meaninglessly till late and get a puny sum of money, of which most if not all will be spent on bills and taxes, and we're gonna work till 70 and die shortly after due to stress and overwork. So, yea. We all plan to run away, to Australia or Canada or Switzerland. Anywhere that's less stressful than here. I plan to go to an Australian University and settle there, NEVER LOOKING BACK. Well, hope I get a chance to do so.

Singapore life really IS screwed up, if you think of it. If you don't get a degree, your life is over, no matter how hard you work. Like, construction workers in Singapore whose lives are super hard and dangerous earn like $800 a month, while construction workers in the US wear Rolex watches and drive Chryslers. Screwed.

THE END. BYE.

blurr

2009-01-25T13:38:00.003+08:00

I just realised I'm really oblivious to my own family.

First, yesterday. My brother had 24hr NS duty, so he wasn't gonna be coming home. My whole family knew it like 2 months ago, but I just found out when it was night and realised he still wasn't back yet. o.O
Well, he's back now, though.

Then, today. My family's gonna be going to my aunt's house today, together with the rest of my extended family, for a DESI-STYLE REUNION DINNER (Desi CNY LOL). And I didn't even know till just now.

This can mean only 2 things. One, it's either my family's starting to disregard me and treat me like some stranger, so they don't bother telling me family stuff. Or two, so much has been going on in my life, with school and stuff, that I've not had any time to catch up with family matters. And I don't think my family is THAT sinister to want to disown me, so it's most probably 2.

CONCLUSION: J2 life sucks.

OHH YEA, removed a lotta links from my blog. Now I'm only keeping the links of people whose blogs I actually read. LOL

On a random note, MU still rock, CAREBEARS OWN, and VIVIENNE is a fat prawn.

care bears vs chip and dale

2009-01-24T15:40:00.003+08:00

So, the battle between CAREBEARS and Chip and Dale continues. Well, CAREBEARS once again won the battle, as usual. Here's how it went:

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
you help publicise care bears, by posing with chip and dale

Vivienne says:
no

Vivienne says:
people will not care about care bears

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
yup\

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
cos they'll fall truly madly deeply in love with care bears

Vivienne says:
NO

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
CARE BEARS OWN THE WORLD

Vivienne says:
you dreaming again

Vivienne says:
NO CHIP AND DALE DO

Vivienne says:
we have chipmunks songs

Vivienne says:
do care bears?

Vivienne says:
we have movies

Vivienne says:
do care bears?

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
we have TATTOOS

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
do chip and dale?

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
NO

Vivienne says:
TATTOOS ARE LAME

Vivienne says:
THEY ARE GANGSTER

Vivienne says:
CHIP AND DALE ARE CIVILISED PEOPLE

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
nope

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
they're childish...so they CAN'T get tattoos

Vivienne says:
nope

Vivienne says:
they know what is right what is wrong

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
nope..they're afraid of needles

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
LOL

Vivienne says:
NO

Vivienne says:
WE ARE CIVILISEDS

Vivienne says:
TATTOOS ARE GANGSTERISH

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
well, chip is a gay name..which means chip and dale encourage homosexuality

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
LOL

Vivienne says:
shuddup

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
whereas carebears prophesize love...thats why they have hearts on their backs

Vivienne says:
shuddup

Vivienne says:
shuddup

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
OWNAGE

Vivienne says:
shudduo

ॐ rohith is fat...AHHH says:
CARE BEARS 1 - CHIP AND DALE 0

CARE BEARS FTW!

whee

2009-01-23T18:21:00.021+08:00

I'M HAPPEEE!! Don't ask why. Haha. OHH read the last bit!

CNY celebration today. BORING. LOL. But managed to slack with Eterna after SUPERRR long, though. Hahh. Then suddenly the SR Dance team came out, and we saw YOU-KNOW-WHO. Then me and Eterna started shouting and asking him to get lost. Haha.

After that, Council walk-in. TAT LOONG PONNED!!

After the walk-in, went to Compass with Ibrahim and Vivienne to eat and buy Ibrahim's mom's present. IBRAHIM, YOU CHEAPO SON! LOL.

Went to slack near the MRT station, and met a crazy man. Asked for money/cigs. Retard.

OMG I broke the no-profanity resolution in the morning, AFTER 4 DAYS!! All cos of Rex, and his stupidity during morning announcements!! GRRRRRR

OH YEA, Ibrahim, they finally confirmed the order, after 2 weeks!! And it will arrive on time! But OMG, I ordered M!! Pls tell me she can fit. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!

NOW THE BATTLE! Vivienne CLAIMED Chip and Dale are super cute, while I said they aren't and CARE BEARS OWN!! Viv said that Care Bears are lame. Welllllll, YOU, the reader, DECIDE!!

CARE BEARS:

WAIT 1 MORE, TOTAL OWNAGE!

Look at the kid! Haha.

Now, Chip and Dale:

K lah i must admit, this one still can make it.

BUT THIS ONE spoils everything!

Damn sick right? SHE SPOILT THE PHOTO!
This is why Care Bears own! LOL

hello

2009-01-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

"Free today? Go shisha"

I was glancing through my phone inbox when I came across this msg from EDMUNDZEE. SORRY, EDMUND. Didn't see the message. Haha. Anyway, SHISHA IS BAD FOR HEALTH!! You better quit. LOL.

Life has been super hectic, but hey, what's new? Typical J2 life. C'est la vie.

PE has been great. As in, it sucks ah, but I can see improvement!! My 2.4km improved a lot! I guess all the running in the hols actually paid off!! And I'm actually FASTER than abt 5 people in my PE group!! (Unbelievable, right? Haha. I don't belive it too) OH thanks Nicholas for pacing me for my final round! You made me go all out. LOL

PE is gonna be non-stop running now onwards according to Mr Teng, and I'm kinda looking forward to it! AND I wanna complete the 100K Challenge!! I guess I finally caught what Mr Yong used to call "Runner's High". Then again, maybe it's my ego speaking. LOL

I've been meeting up with some old classmates. Slacked and went to eat a few times. I MISS THEM LOADS!! They haven't changed. Especially Eterna. I remember how the 2 of us used to do sooo much stuff to random people last yr, and we're still doing it this yr!! LOL. Take care bro =)

OMG my pocket is now SUPER PINCHED, $50 GONE!! Ibrahim knows why. (SHHH IBRAHIM!)

OHH TIME FOR MORE SMSES!! Enjoy =)

"Hey hot stuff :) I think you're super hot.. Tell you a secret :) I got a crush on you :) "

MESSAGE SENT BY VIVIENNE! LOL. SORRY, I HAD TO!
Ehh but i very good to you, k? I haven't called you THE THING I SAID I WON'T (I won't say it here, dun wanna embarrass you. I very good, k?) for 3 days already, and exceeded 100 messages also! See? this is called pro/nice-ness. LOL

OHH YEA!! I've been keeping my resolutions so far this yr, for the first time EVERRR!! I've been a nicer guy, I've not used profanities in days, and i've been doing MOST of my hw!! WOO!

P.S. VALERIE, STOP PSYCHO-ING ME!!

trust

2009-01-19T22:56:00.004+08:00

What do you do if someone you trust tells you that someone you consider really close to you is back-stabbing you, and telling people stuff about you that you never thought they would? That was something that was running through my mind the whole day today. Well, it's super super irritating to be in the position i'm in now, and honestly, looking at what happened in the past didn't exactly make the situation any better. On one side is someone with a totally clear conscience with no reason to lie to me, and on the other is someone who I had an unpleasant history with, and yet is now within my top 10 friends. So, it's moral VS heart. And I chose heart. END OF STORY

SHOUT OUT: VALERIE LIM ZHI YOU, DO NOT PSYCHO ME INTO THE THING YOU'RE TRYING TO PSYCHO ME INTO!!

Hallo!
Well, JC2 officially began last monday, and i'm struggling to keep up with the pace of J2 life. Then again, what's new? LOL. Anyway, my new class is quite fun. I mean, worse stuff CAN happen, and they're quite nice people, so yea. (although I confine myself to Eunice..LOL)

As for my teachers, different issue altogether. LOL. I like my GP teacher (Mr Raymond Andrew)!! I think my chem teacher (Ms Esther Cheng) is okay, my math teacher (STILL Lim Ting) is also not bad, my physics teacher (Mr Nordin) is okay? As for Econs, MDM SA'ADIAH IS SOMEONE I WANNA MAKE DO WITHOUT!! LOL

Life's been hectic. Staying up till late to do hw and stuff, sleeping 3-4 hrs daily, etc. But, life goes on.

I was talking to some of my JC1 classmates the other day and telling them about how difficult life was, when one of them asked me a question that got me thinking. "Given a chance, if you could reverse time and go back to JC1, would you still join Student Council?". The reason why this was asked was because they knew I had to forgo lots of stuff because of Council. For one, I have NEVER gone for any single class outing, because Council always got in the way. I couldn't even go back to see my sec sch teachers on Teachers' Day because of Council. I had to stay up soo late and get up sooo early to do so much while the rest of them slept. So if given a choice, would I still join Student Council? Well, I seriously thought about it and realised the truth.

YES, I would still join Council. Yes, it's true that I sacrificed so much for Council and it's super taxing, but then again, Council has made me a much better person than I ever was. Without Council, I'd still be the same as before, ponning lessons and all, not bothering to do stuff, not caring about my conduct or appearance and blatantly disobeying and disrespecting every single aspect of the college. But since I joined Council, I've learned ohsomuch. I'm now much more serious in my work, I actually give a damn about my conduct though I don't always abide to the rules, teachers look at me sooo differently now and I'm glad to say I've gained their respect (for the first time in my life), and SURPRISINGLY, I'VE NOT PONNED LESSONS OR ANYTHING ELSE SINCE I JOINED COUNCIL!! Yea, I haven't. LOL. So, yea. I've sacrificed soo much, but then again, Council taught me moral values, Council taught me self-discipline, Council forced onto me the value of perseverance, Council shaped and developed my character, and most importantly, Council made me what I am right now.

It was with this that when my CT asked me to fill in my goals and aspirations for 2009, the thing I listed as most important was "Honouring and living up to my badge". YES, it sounds super cheesy, but for the first time since PAE, I feel so greatly for Council. For the first time ever, I wanna do Council proud. For the first time ever, I wanna stand up tall and say, "Hey, I'm a Councillor". Yea, I know it sounds damn fake, but this is the first time ever that i feel SOOOO proud to be a part of the Student Council, and I really hope this feeling stays with me.

On a more academic note, while the whole world is studying for tomorrow's 2 lecture tests, here I am online, wasting my time away, with no intention to study whatsoever. GG-fied.

open hse

2009-01-09T22:01:00.002+08:00

1st post after new yr!! LOL. For some reason, everyone starts off like this.
Oh yea, this will be my first ever post without multiple fullstops!! WOO!!

Anyway, let's start off with new yr resolutions. Resolution number 3 was broken 5 minutes after new year, at 12.05am. We were in McDonald's, wishing random people happy new year, when some guy we wished just ignored us. So i shouted "F you lah". Then i realised i broke my resolution. In 5 minutes. The fastest ever. Hahahaha. Broke it several times over the past few days too. I'm doing a lil' bit of hw, so Resolution 5 MAY work out. I've been a nicer person to SOME people, but much more un-nice (a four-letter word can be used to describe this much more easily, but i dun wanna break my resolution again) to many others. So, yea. Resolution 2 is mixed? As for the rest, still in progress! Hahaha

The past few days have been... BLEAH
That's the only word i can use to describe it. Well, its been super taxing and i'm having this super duper brain drain. Council plus open house plus undone work plus the Wei Xiang incident plus Cetus stuff. Can just drop dead. But, nevermind. It'll all be over soon i guess, and it will all get better in time =)

So anyways, realised loads of stuff in the process. Including, stuff about people. Like how Mrs Jerene Tay is possibly the BEST TEACHER EVERRRR!!! YOU ROCK, MRS TAY!! The only teacher to EVER listen to the way we feel about stuff. Well, she helped to ease loads of stress and tension from me, personally. And she sacrificed her personal time just to talk to us, when she has a young daughter waiting for her at home. MRS TAY, FTW!!

Oh, on a lighter note, people love me. LOL. See for yourself:

Vivienne needs to recharge. who got human charger? says:
rohith, you're super nice!

Vivienne needs to recharge. who got human charger? says:
i think you're sooooo hot

ohh, and to end off:

Vivienne is going to strangle Rohith. you watch out. HAHA says:
you're fat...but you can never reach my level of fat-ness

SORRY VIVIENNE. HAHAHA

new yr

2008-12-31T18:05:00.004+08:00

2009 IS LESS THAN 6 HRS AWAY!!! WOOO!!!

gonna talk abt the past few days, and of course...new yr resolutions!!

the past few days have been...dunno wad to say...haha...wasted all my time with useless stuff...

christmas was fun!! haha...party plus booze equals fun!! haha...ohh, and baked brownies on christmas!! woo!! first time i baked sth in my life...haha...wanna know how it turned out? see for yourself...

i rock

anw, didnt have time to buy presents this yr, so only bought for daniel and ibrahim...i wont say wad i got them, but i know they love their presents...MUAHAHAHAHAHA

k now for the all important new yr resolutions!!

1. FIT INTO A SIZE L BY JUNE!!!
2. be a nicer person
3. stop using curse words (shut up ibrahim, i know what you're gonna say abt this..LOL)
4. pay attention in sch!!
5. do all my homework!!
6. complete both Adidas Sundown and Standard Chartered 2009 marathons
7. RUN 15KM FOR WiLL RUN '09!!!

yup thats basically it...Number 1 is the most important to me, number 2 has been attempted and broken millions of times before, number 3, ibrahim can tell it better, number 4 and 5 are IMPOSSIBLE and will definitely by broken...100% guarantee plus chop...i'm already training up for 6 and 7, so there's a chance it may happen!! WOO!!!

k gotta go now, gonna meet some old friends for dinner and then countdown...

HAPPY NEW YR!!

sg out

2008-12-21T21:52:00.003+08:00

2nd post today...only abt 1 thing....

FUCK THE VIETNAM TEAM!!! KANINA...SINGAPORE OWN THE FUCKING MATCH!!! KANINA...ONE BLOODY DEFENSIVE SLIP...IN SINGAPORE SOMEMORE...KANINA...DEFENDING CHAMPIONS FOR 2 FUCKING YEARS KENA KICK OUT, HOME GAME SOMEMORE...LOSE IN VIETNAM NOT THAT BAD, BUT NO....MUST LOSE IN SINGAPORE...KANINA...FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK...KANINA...FUCK THE VIETNAM PLAYERS...THEY WASTE TIME LIKE FREE..KANINA...TOUCH A BIT ROLL ON THE FLOOR LIKE THEIR FATHER DIE...FUCK THEM...FUCKING FUCKERS...KANINA...FUCK YOU ALL...WAVE COMMUNIST STAR AT NATIONAL STADIUM? FUCK OFF LAH KANINA...FUCKING HELL...KANINA...FUCK...GOT NTH TO SAY...FUCK LAH...SPOIL DAY....SOMEMORE I SUPPOSED TO STOP USING CURSE WORDS...FUCK...KANINA...DAMNIT I NEED MY SHEESHA

arab street

2008-12-21T18:03:00.005+08:00

not gonna blog abt the 20 days that i didnt blog.. only gonna talk abt fri and sat (ytd)..

well, on thurs, spent most of my time (9 hrs to be exact) doing the fkingknnbccbnabeichihongkan thing that i won't mention (shhh).. slept for 2-3 hrs? had other stuff to do.. woke up at 8 on fri, went to sch to meet mr lau to vet the proposal.. was with bamboo and limhee.. after mr lau left, limhee had to leave too.. so me and bamboo stayed in the council room to edit our proposals.. INSTEAD, we ended up slacking and doing nth inside for 6 hrs, from 11 to 5.. LOL.. ordered pizza, watched a movie, listened to music, talked cock.. fun.. haha..

saturday, meaning yesterday, met up with ed.. he wanted to look for xmas presents and stuff.. so we met at abt 11.. went to peninsula first.. he wanted to buy a guitar.. LOL.. changed his mind.. then went to funan to eat.. from there, somehow we walked to clarke quay.. LOL.. edmund wanted to look for stuff in giordano, so we went into central.. after trying desperately to find giordano in central for more than half an hr, we gave up and went to bugis..

bought some stuff in bugis.. OMG it was BLOODY packed.. it was like everyone in SG happened to be at bugis on saturday.. then we decided to go to haji lane for sheesha!! hahaha.. wanted to try it.. so we tried walking to haji lane from bugis.. ended up at weird places we never knew existed in singapore.. damn weird.. felt like we went back in time, and were in china or sth.. ppl staring at us, all the TCM stuff all over.. creepy.. even edmund freaked.. LOL.. in the end, decided to ask for directions.. realised we took the wrong turn from bugis.. shld have went left, instead we went right.. so after almost 2 hrs of walking and trying to find haji lane, we ended up back at bugis.. retarded.. then, we found HAJI LANE!!

it was super cool lah..shops selling clothes we'd NEVER afford and all.. walked past this turkish cafe.. some crazy china man tried to lure us in.. we said no, but ended up there in the end.. LOL.. ordered some turkish drinks, fries and of course..SHEESHA!! hahahahaha..well, see the pics later.. LOL.. was embarrassing at first, cos we couldn't use it.. in the end, when we asked, found out that they didnt put the charcoal, so it wasn't burning; thats why it wasn't working.. LOL.. the china guy kept taking our pipe and using it.. idiot.. haha.. after A LOTTA PUFFS, we left.. a bit high.. LOL..

then we went around the city looking for some bag edmund wanted to buy.. found it eventually at marina square.. a ripcurl bag for a 'friend' of his for xmas.. $85.. she's confirm more than just a friend.. LOL..

met my parents at abt 9 after that.. went to watch yes man at PS.. ed watched with us, cos we had an extra ticket.. LOL.. nice show.. after that, we dropped him and went home.. yupp thats abt it.. k enough talk.. SHEESHA TIME!!

Cheese fries

The pipe

It was not me who possessed the pipe, it was the pipe that possessed me

Ed with his smoke...

Think that's a lotta smoke? SEE THIS:

OWNAGE

sry ed...haha

bye bye bye bye bye

2008-12-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

haven't updated in super long. hols now. instead of publishing more cos i have more time, i'm publishing much less cos i'm super lazy. ARGGHHH

OUR CLASSES WERE SPLIT!!! WTH lah. i was sent to 2S16. a class full of ppl i dun even know!! well, at least i have 4 ppl with me. eunice, nicholas, john and jiajia. still, how are we supposed to be A CLASS, if the fact is we CANNOT break the bonds we shared with our old classes to form new ones with these new ppl? its IMPOSSIBLE. i hate SR for this. the worst thing is, MR LIM TING IS OUR CT!!! GG-fied. can't run away from submitting his tutorials now. i have to actually DO them!!! omg. this is so un-rohith like...

this post is abt giving thanks and saying goodbye to all the great ppl i've met this yr...

i'm gonna miss 1S23 loads. we laughs we had, the moments we shared, EVERYTHING...
i'm gonna miss the ppl leaving council, too. we shared SOOO much memories together, esp in CTC and ASPIRE...you guys rock truckloads!!

i'm now gonna say my goodbyes... (SRY DAN, I'M COPYING UR STYLE)

FIRSTLY, those who will be leaving council:

delaila - i nvr really got a chance to know you, so my initial opinion of you wasn't exactly good. however, everything changed after our promo results came out..when i saw you working soooo hard in council despite you knowing you'd have to leave at the end of the yr, my respect for you grew tremenduously. KUDOS to you

daryl - it was seriously great having you around..i remember when me and weixiang kept making fun of you for ur popcorn-ness and stuff..and also the time when both of us were in the blazer room, calling up every single "blazer" maker, only to find out most were florists and stuff...LOL..i've always had a liking for you dude...take care popcorn!!

clifford - the first time i got close to you is when we were preparing doorgifts for invest, and it was like only the 2 of us were actually working and giving a damn abt the gifts. we also had countless talks on anything and everything, from council to music to religion to sch to EVERYTHING. it's been awesome knowing you and having you arnd. justin was right, you are truly a SAI KANG WARRIOR...ohh, for the record, MONTFORT TOTALLY OWNS ST. GABS!!!

vivienne - throughout PAE, i didnt like you AT ALL. after knowing you better, i realised that you're a great person to be with, and i've always had fun with you arnd, simply standing arnd and being the victim of our jokes. heck, i can't even remember the PAE fight anymore. anyway, although i'll never ever say this in ur face and hope you won't read this, i'm super glad to have a friend like you, and i'll really miss you loads.

VALERIE LIM ZHI YOU - i've known you since PAE, and will rly miss you. council for me was super fun with you arnd; always nagging, bitching, cursing, screaming and laughing ALL THE TIME, making me look forward to every single council meeting. here's wishing you all the VERY best, and i do hope you join sth that makes you happy next yr

NOW, on to the ppl who changed my life totally...the ppl who made school worth going for, 1S23 '08!! (if you're name isn't here, it means you're in my class next yr!!)
(PW GRP GOES FIRST!!)

TOH ZU MEI (you're the first!!) - boring lessons were made fun with you arnd, esp with the fact that YOU CAN'T STOP TALKING!! haha. PW was a diff story, though. you were nvr serious within PW lessons, but outside lessons, i know you worked real hard for PW. i remember a few days before our WR was due, we stayed up all night, chionging to complete it and not getting any sleep in the process. will miss PW, and will miss you even more. i do hope i'll see you arnd next yr. take care =)

CHEN YI HUI - i won't ever forget you. after all, you hold the record for coming late for every single PW meeting!! hahaha. anyways, you helped us draw out all the stuff we needed, and your lame-ness lifted our moods throughout. haha. i was esp touched to know that you planned to go poly super long ago, but stayed on just to help us out in PW. you didnt have to, but you did. thks loads for it =)

kenneth su - hey GP rep!! i'll always remember you for being the one who won the outdoor PE game for us!! WOO!! and you delayed the handing in of GP stuff to mrs wong to help us out a lot.you rock man!! keep in touch, yea?

ervin - YOU!! PE CHEATER!! hahaha. well, it was fun throwing water at you repeatedly when you were changing for PE. LOL

vinitha, sharan, sugar, sharon - lumped you all together cos i associate you guys as ONE. shared good laughs with all of you. thanks for everything!! NOTE: vinitha, you'll be remembered for sth only me and eterna know. LOL

jingyi - hey treasurer!! i'll always remember you as the one who kept calling me "stupid maggi mee". haha. take care =)

ridley - CORN!! thats the first thing that comes in my mind when i think of you. you always cheered everyone up with ur random-ness and stuff. oh oh oh oh oh, maths rep for 1 week! haha

bala - well, you're bala. haha

hui ling - CT rep! haha. will miss you and ur lameness/randomness/coldness/dumbness/retardedness/etc etc loads. hope we'll keep in touch. i'm always here if you need me, and i know you'll be there if i need you =)

qian bi - FATTY!! will miss you and ur fat jokes loads. now i dun have anyone to call fat anymore!! its gonna be super boring without you arnd. BUT DON'T YOU FORGET, THE CONTEST IS STILL ON!!

richard - your smell will NOT be missed. neither will your arrogance. BUT, for what it's worth, you're a nice guy if you take away these stuff. see you arnd =)

kelvin - your retardedness will be missed, esp your one-hand push-ups, your stupid smile, your perverted horny face, your lines "eh, i A Math get A1 ah" and "ehh, i NCC you know" and of course, the tissue paper you used for ur teeth (eterna will remember this very well)

ken - it was GREAT having you as a classmate. you were one of my closest friends in class, too. i remember our discussion on women, chess club, council, races, vietnam, your weird eating habits, dog meat, cockroaches, RISK!!, and of course, your dearest fucktard chess president. LOL. your dry humour never failed to entertain. take care dude.

and of course, KWA ETERNA SUSANTHA - hey dude!! at first, when i saw you, i thought you were retarded, hanging arnd kelvin and all. but as i got to know you, i discovered you hated kelvin as much as i did!! LOL. we shared lots of stuff in common, like the other ppl we hated and stuff. class was super fun with you arnd, esp with the computer CD drive thing, PUSSYASIAN and all, kill fuck marry, screwing arnd, bitching abt ppl, D******, and all the sex talk, and so much more!! we always ate together and talked abt everything. we were always together. damn gay. haha. but, yea. we screwed arnd all the time. screwed richard, kelvin and D. HAHA. we screwed every single thing possible. all the pranks we played also. the forged receipts and bendable shoes for richard, $5 girl for ken, the teeth SMS, sweets that dropped on the floor and so much more for kelvin, and so so so much more on all other ppl!! oh, and PUSSY JUICE!! HAHAHAHAHA. we really had loads of fun together in class and in ASPIRE, and i know i'll miss you loads, more than anyone else. i know i'll see you again, though...IN HELL!! hahahaha

of course, the person i really wanted to go up with me is DANIEL ONG!! ahh, nvm...doesn't make much of a diff anyway, cos we'll still slack and lepak and eat and lepak more ALL THE TIME!! haha.

i'll really miss all these ppl. it's been great knowing all of them, and i really wish we could stay together forever. oh well, all good things have to come to an end, and you never know how much you love someone until they're gone.

on a more random note, i'm gonna reveal some stuff here that only the closest of friends know, but now, for the first time everrrr, THE WORLD WILL KNOW!!

1. i'm trying to get rid of my habit of multiple fullstops after every sentence (single fullstops in MOST sentences so far if you noticed)

2. i think girls with braces are cute (dun think too much vivienne, you're the exception. LOL)

3. i'm currently addicted to emo love songs for some reason

4. i've been running 4km everyday so far for 5 days (I WANNA LOSE WEIGHT AND WIN QIANBI!!)

5. jessica alba is MY DREAM... eh wait, thats not a secret. LOL
6. i THINK i've fallen for her (ibrahim knows)

hols??

2008-11-14T19:59:00.006+08:00

havingastringofbaddays

PW OP was super super screwed up...i think i'll manage maybe a C at best

brought my PW grp for lunch on monday to signify the end of PW...

holiday lessons....totally fucked up and super time wastage...

had to submit 4 full-length essays (each with part a and part b, meaning 8 essays in total!!) by today....only submitted 2...i'm super screwed...

dun understand a thing abt chem....i'm fucked for A lvl chem next yr...

been staying back in sch the past few days to teach huiling and fatty econs for their retest....i dun think i'm a good teacher, though =(

life is so weird now with only half my class left over...i even miss the weirdos like kelvin and richard...ppl although i'm not exactly close to most of them, i still miss them loads...the class feels so empty now =(

i feel like some loner now...eterna was my closest friend, and with him gone, it feels like i'm left with no one =(((

i'm closer to the rest now, though....ppl like eunice and bala esp...we're like the singing trio, with nic and ridley...hahahahha....

well, thats life...it goes on, i guess....will still miss the retainees loads, esp ppl like eterna...it was great to have known you for almost a yr, bro...hope we'll stay in touch....

ohh yea....because she asked for it, THANK YOU ZUMEI, FOR BEING THE FIRST TO GET THE BAG!!! this is specially dedicated to you!!! hahahah

P.S., YOU...i dun discriminate you for being a retainee....i nvr will...you're scared we'll all forget you and move on with J2 life, but you dun realize 1 thing...you're one of the closest friends i have, and it pains me to see you in pain...whenever you're sad or irritated or bored or wadever, i'm hurt...you keep saying you're insignificant to me, but the truth is that you're one of the most significant ppl in my life...dun you get it? why is it that i call you at random times, or look for you during breaks? the sad thing is that, although i consider you extremely significant, you consider me as nth, and treat me like nth...it hurts to see it, though i nvr say it...who does, anyway....but sometimes, i ask myself...wads ur problem? i mean, you keep saying you're leaving council and stuff cos you dun have a choice, but you dun even act like you care even a bit for council...even today, when we were trying to plan for the scavenger hunt and were trying to think of games, you didnt even give a damn...you were sms-ing, and even slept after that....ZERO CONTRIBUTION....i saw the msg you sent the fucker, that said you were bored...you know how fucked up it feels when the head of our committee leaves with a task incomplete, leaving it to 2 ppl (me and kath) to complete, of which 1 isn't even here, and there is so much for me to do BY TONIGHT, only to find out that someone you thought would support you all the way not even giving a damn abt wad you're desperately trying to hold together? well, screw it...not like you're even gonna read this....screw it all...SCREW YOU ALL...i guess i was wrong again, i only have myself to rely on...why did i even think that i have you guys with me, when the truth is that when i needed you guys the most, i was alone? fuck it....

sry if you feel hurt by any means cos of this post, but i'm hurt...dun take wadever i say too harshly, cos i'm super fucking angry, pissed off and betrayed now...hopefully will feel better soon, and delete this fucked up post....fuck

special frnd

2008-11-04T23:39:00.003+08:00

this post is for a SPECIAL friend of mine...she knows who she is =)

yesterday: at first, i thought you, like the rest, forgot abt my bday...well, you did forget, and wished me quite late on...didn't expect you to call though...well, it was nice enough for you to call me, i didnt expect you to do anything else...but shortly after that, i got flooded with msges from the class...it was then that i realised...YOU TOLD THEM TO WISH ME...omg...you really didnt have to, but you did...

today: wasn't expecting anything...it was totally normal all the way...met my grp and urs in the SAC, and it was like normal...nth seemed different....then suddenly, you, zm, qb and nh (all initials, go figure...LOL) gave me a present...a nike gym bag, to replace my puma women's gym bag!! LOL...rly rly didnt have to waste money...but really appreciate it anw (though i suspect it wasn't from the grp of you, but rather only you who went to buy)...thks loads!! one of the nicest stuff i've gotten so far in life =)

also, you gave me the notebook thingy....you said "it's meant for you to cry"... -.-
haha....well, i read it when i got home...the first few pages were damn funny...then i read the rest of it...guess wad? you were right...it DID make me tear...

i'm gonna end off with saying, thks so much for being such a great friend...i really hope we move up together, to J2 next yr...i'll be praying =)

happy birthday to me...

2008-11-03T23:36:00.002+08:00

3/11/2008...sweet 17? LOL...doesn't exist, but yea...

anyways, yea...today's my bday...the feeling's weird? not in a bad way, though...

today was very enlightening...birthdays always are...it's when you find out who your real friends are, those who actually remember ur bday...glad to say that although it's not a lot, at least i have a few =)

thanks guys who stayed up just to wish me...you made my day....

JUSTIN!!, KHUSBU!!, KELWIN!!, and a few more...msged me right on the dot at midnight...YOU GUYS MADE MY DAY =)

of course, EUNICE, who was the 1st to msg me....NUMBER 1!!! though she cheated and msged at 11.45....hahaha....

and of course, 2 SPECIAL idiots, who conferenced with me on the phone...they know who they are...one idiot who keeps insulting me for no reason, and another who KEEPS THINKING I'M INSULTING HER...hahah...thks guys!! you actually bothered calling...didnt think you would...love you guys (NOT in the gay way) =)

anyways, PRESENTS!! got a DICOTA laptop bag from my brother, and A SAMSUNG OMNIA FROM MY DAD!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! (btw, you're not getting it, valerie)

also, got some other friends who smsed me later on in the day...some cos they forgot its my birthday, some cos they didnt know from the start and someone else told them, and some WANTED TO WISH ME AT MIDNIGHT BUT COULDNT STAY UP AT NIGHT AND FELL ASLEEP, ONLY TO REALISE THEY FELL ASLEEP IN THE MORNING!!! LOL!!! *cough* tatloong *cough* really appreciate it guys, esp the guy who accidentally fell asleep =)

one person spoilt it, though...a person who thinks i owe her sth on my bday...who cant even take a simple joke...retarded...after all the months i helped you despite you not even being in my sch anymore, you still think I betrayed YOU? GET REAL...anyways, my friends overpower that PARASITE, so it's all good!!

i'm not expecting any presents from friends, cos it's great enough that they remembered my birthday....thats all i need =)

hmmm....this yr's bday....1 word: WOW

1 day before results!!

2008-10-12T20:03:00.004+08:00

blogging after SUPER long....hahah....i think my blog's gonna close soon...AS USUAL....

lemme just wrap up everything that happened after promos...

went out quite a lot with old e2 friends...only the few i'm really close to, actually...like amjad, dan ong, shaoxiong, edmund....we went for a number of reunions...they're more than friends, actually....they're the best ppl i've ever met...

went out with some other ppl....

FUCKING PHONE CRASHED....my e65....was downloading a software update when the phone suddenly went blank....couldnt switch it back on after that....went to the nokia service centre...at first, they said it'll cost like $60...not that bad...so i said okay...then, they called me and said it'll cost $180, cos they need to send it for some crap....so i told them fuck off, i dun want it repaired...so i have to pay $30 for rejecting the repair...wth....have to pay $30 just for nokia to keep my phone for 1 day...the worst thing abt this whole incident isn't the money...it's the fact that ALL MY CONTACTS, PHOTOS, VIDEOS, MSGES AND SUCH ARE GONE!!! NOOOOOO!!! FUCK NOKIA...fucking Finnish bastards...

got closer to the new ppl with me...drifted away from those i THOUGHT i was close to...now i'm happy to say i dun depend on them anymore!! no more MT lessons calling them for entertainment...LOL

and did a lot more stuff...but, lazy type...hahah...

PW is screwed up, we're like in a standstill...

anyways, promos was screwed up....i can pass math and phy, but nth else...i think i'm gonna retain...or wait, maybe i'll go poly...no idea...only time will tell....one thing's for sure, i'm not gonna be in 2S23 2009...

results coming out tmr!!! die....gonna die so early on...howhowhow??

sunday

2008-09-07T23:54:00.001+08:00

today was supposed to chiong and complete the 1st math lecture book...in the end, spent all my time online...10% of the time doing EoM, 90% watching videos, reading jokes, etc....promos in 2 weeks, still yet to start studying....1 word: FUCK

WAAAAAAA i just realised i dun wanna fail promos!!! i wanna promote!!! but i can't study!!!!
SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!!

hols week

2008-09-06T19:00:00.002+08:00

gonna talk abt the past week....

HOLS....why they call it hols if we have sch like almost every day???

anw, not gonna talk abt sch....too sian....

gonna talk abt wad happened in between breaks in sch...

tuesday: during the 2.5 hrs break we had till math tutorial started, me, eterna and DANIELONGZHENGYI went to eat...saw daniel...he had CHINESE CONSULTATION...cos he pon 5 hrs of chinese, so had to make up...NOOB...hahahah....then when he was supposed to do his chinese essay, he SNEAKED OUT with us to eat....tsk tsk tsk....hahahah.....went to yoshinoya first...eat some breakfast stuff....was SUPER LITTLE lah....but after we slack a while at yoshi after we ate, somehow became full....well, not ETERNA...he was still hungry....so we went to kobayashi to eat 2nd round...ate some other stuff...already so full, after eating more i just felt like exploding...then we chiong back and go for math....daniel went for gp...math damn boring...
the only interesting that happened during math was that i was SUPER dumb....I STAPLED MY OWNED FINGER!!!!! was stunned for a few seconds then pulled it out....started bleeding like wad...was damn bloody fucking pain...then huiling told mr lim to let me go toilet to wash my hand...i tried to act like some bigshot man and said no, nvr mind...then i realised was bleeding badly, so i decided to go....I'M SUPER DUMB....

wednesday: during the 1 hr break before chem lecture, me and eterna went to macs to have breakfast...after eating that, ETERNA being ETERNA was STILL HUNGRY, so we went to yoshinoya for 2nd round....was also damn bloody full after that, and felt like EXPLODING AGAIN...lagi best: after chem lecture, got 1 hr break...WENT TO EAT AGAIN!!! me, eterna, john, ken, kenneth, eunice, jing yi, qian bi, bala....at the coffeeshop beside sch...after eating, still buy bubble tea and waffle....bloody hell...i think my stomach expanded to 2X its original size....was late for chem tutorial, so kena screamed and shouted at by ms khiew...LOL...after chem, i told eterna that the ppl doing the econs alive presentation SCREWED UP BIG TIME, and the whole thing was link-less, point-less, seimply retarded and CMI....so me and eterna decided to do it BY OURSELVES...
SRY BALA, COULDN'T PLAY DAI DI COS OF THIS....
went to kovan first to da pao stuff in case we got hungry...(WTH, 3RD TIME IN LESS THAN 2 HRS!!!) eterna was like, "maybe we can order pastamania delivery at my place"...so i went to withdraw cash first....then i got the shock of my life....
i couldn't withdraw...you know why? BANK ACCOUNT BALANCE: $2.68....YES, thats 2 dollars and 68 cents....meaning i blew $2000 in 7 months....i'm damn screwed...i need $2000 to deposit into my account before my account statement comes in december...ANY SPONSORS???
anw, since i was broke and only had $10 cash, decided to da pao...guess wad?? YOSHINOYA...bought some stuff from yoshinoya, plus the fish thingy from old chang kee...then took a cab to eterna's place...reached at abt 4? the first thing we did was EAT....RETARDED....dunno how many rounds of food with less than 2 hrs in between each round...i think i'm gonna die early...LOL...so anw, after eating, we chiong-ed econs alive...started at abt 4.15, ended at 8.40....RETARDED...did 15 ppl's share of work in one day....chiong-ed like crazy...finally, we completed!!! wad 15 ppl couldn't do in 5 weeks, we did in 5 hrs!!! damn proud of myself...after that, eterna tried to act like some player, so started showing me all the "chicks" from his friendster...LOL....after that, was raining SUPER HEAVY...so chiong-ed to the busstop...he had to go for tuition (AT 9.30 PM....RETARDED TUTOR...), and i had to go home...hahah....SPRINTED LIKE WAD IN THE RAIN FOR THE BUS!!! LOL!!! cos it was like at the traffic light and gonna reach soon, and we were still opposite...so for 2 mins in the heavy rain...when we boarded, we were totally soaked in water lah...and ppl were looking at us like wad...2 crazy ppl running in the rain, laughing all the way, for the bus...LOL...

THURS: had math test and stuff...gonna screw up, cos didnt study...was doing econs alive ytd while those who did nth for econs alive studied...unfair!! ahh, nvm...after that, did econs alive presentation!!! was quite good...quite funny also...i think we did well...hahahahaha....

SATURDAY: hindi sch...just realised that the ppl in my hindi sch class are quite fun after all...screwed arnd with them all the way...the teacher was super pissed with us ah...hahahah...i love hindi sch now!!! OMG i just realised that over these few days, just by letting go of a few ppl, i met totally GREAT and AWESOME PPL!!! why didnt i realise this before...ahh well...WHO KNEW...

gonna end off with saying that IF YOU WANNA SAVE MONEY, OR WANNA LOSE WEIGHT, DUN EVER GO OUT WITH ETERNA!!! hahahaha

PROMOS in 15 days....and just realised that i'm the only idiot who hasn't started studying AT ALL...i guess it's too late to start now...ahh well, nvm...i'm just gonna repeat J1 then...gonna go thru anything, INCLUDING REPEATING, with an open and positive mind...

and i still love my emporio armani specs (sry RINA!! hahah)

anthem of our dying day

2008-09-01T11:48:00.004+08:00

this post is abt friends...gonna be half emo, half normal....first, the emo part....

FUCKTHEWORLD....every single day sth comes up to make life screwed up...and the worst thing is, all these problems link back to ppl i trusted, or at least i THOUGHT i trusted them...

fuck the ppl i thought i could trust even more than myself....they just turned on me when i needed them the most...
fuck the ppl i thought were close to me...they were just trying to part from me...
fuck the ppl i thought would take a bullet for me...they turned out to be the ones who fired the bullet...
FUCK THE WORLD

now, the normal part...the stuff i mentioned above was actually a blessing in disguise...when i drifted away from those i considered to be "true friends", i found better ppl, ppl i nvr knew could be true friends...ppl i doubted all the way....WHO KNEW....
ppl like eterna & john, john tang, bala, ken and many many more....this revelation came within a week...

first, me, bala and ken will now always be together during mother tongue and stuff...they were always with me, yet i used to look for "friends" from other classes all the time during mother tongue...WHO KNEW...

then, eterna....whenever i was looking for ppl to sit with during lessons...whenever i was insecure....he was always there...and guess wad? i'm sitting with him everyday now...WHO KNEW....

also, john & eterna, despite knowing ohsomany more ppl, will always go out AT LEAST once a week after sch with me for bubble tea or dinner...they were always there for me, yet i kept looking for other ppl..."friends"....to go out with everyday...and guess wad? they kept rejecting me....WHO KNEW...

then, the 4 of us....me, bala, eterna, ken....whenever i was looking for ppl to chill with, i nvr considered any of the ppl in my class...i kept looking for "friends" from other classes, who couldn't give a damn abt mel...guess wad? the 4 of us went to eat at the coffeeshop outside sch some time last week....after eating, when we were waiting for the rain to stop, we went to the tables at the voiddeck and played like godknowshowmany rounds of dai di....super fun...and the vietnam boy kept losing all the way...then we quickly ran away when we thought some aunty called the police....was seriously seriously super super fun...why did i ever have to look for anyone else, when these guys were with me all the way...WHO KNOW...

and of course, JOHN TANG....this bloody idiot...why was i ever looking for a friend when i had him all the while? he was always there...he ran with me during PE, slacked with me in random classrooms after PE, sat with me in every lecture, gossipped with me in every break and forced me to do chem hw...WHO KNEW....

wow....and all this happened within a week? WHO KNEW....

thank you, GOD, for showing me the meaning of friendship...but then again, all's not lost...there are still ppl i trust till today....perfect example? DANIEL ONG....11 yrs and counting, still trusting...this isn't friendship...this is BROTHERHOOD....
and the mini reunion dinner we organised with some of the e2 guys on friday was worth every minute....met great ppl again....daniel, edmund, shao xiong...miss you guys like crazy...dinner was super fun lah....the retarded pizza hut lady, ICE WATER (HAHAHA), looking at alcohol at cold storage and acting like we're damn big drinkers, and then, cheering for BOB in superbowl....hahahahahahaha....MUST MEET AGAIN SOON!!!

From up here the city lights burn, Like a thousand miles of fire. And I'm here to sing this Anthem Of our Dying Day.

P.S. i'm still madly in love with my emporio armani specs

FINALLY

2008-08-22T23:33:00.002+08:00

HALLO!!!

blogging after super long...1 month? same thing happening as during sec 1, then sec 3&4...gonna end up closing this blog too...well, i guess it's just a habit....

life so far....dunno how to describe....anything BUT stable...sometimes it's super high, sometimes it just sucks...

ibrahim's bday...8th aug...went out in the morning first to get him stuff...then met him in sch and stuff...the same day, in the evening, got thanksgiving concert!!! super cool!!! SR teachers rock...
HEARTPAIN, spent $60 on his presents...hope he doesnt read this...

then on ibrahim's bday, i started a very disturbing act that is now coming back to haunt me...BANGKOK!! i went arnd banging...eterna kena the worse...the hardest i ever hit someone, and he was on his knees and hugging his THING for like, 10 mins? HAHAHA....then everyone took revenge in time and started banging mine...sad...hahahah....must watch my back from now onwards...

life....haiz...sometimes it's rly good, sometimes it sucks...ppl betraying again, ppl leaving me out again, ppl running away from work, ppl talking to ppl they shouldn't be talking to...super irritating, and i've been getting mood swings...dunno wads wrong with me...

OHHH AND TODAY....i broke my specs in the morning!! trying to bend it into shape, then just broke the specs through the centre...$300 transitions lenses gone =(
BUT THEN, when sch ended, i told my dad and mom...kena like wad...say i dun appreciate money, etc...and they said i'm gonna get just plain, simple specs...but when we went to the specs shop, i bought new specs....EMPORIO ARMANI!!! OMG i nvr thought that in my whole life, i'd ever own EMPORIO ARMANI!!! SUPER COOL!!! BUT it was $400 plus lah...my dad was reluctant and stuff, but he gave in....i'm a spoilt kid... =(
kinda feeling guilty, but stilll.....SUPER COOL!!!

I LOVE MY NEW HOT EMPORIO ARMANI SPECS!!!!

12km

2008-07-23T20:16:00.002+08:00

HALLO!! wanna start off by wishing MR FAT A VERY VERY VERY HAPPY 17TH BDAY!!! hope ur day goes awesome...

anw, wanna talk abt sth BIG...WiLL Run trial run!!!! was today at abt 4.30...wanted to try running 13km in 90 mins, but only could do 12....haiz...so CLOSE, yet so FAR...

anw, even though i performed below wad i was aiming for, i'm still super happy, cos i did sth i never thought i could...honestly, if i was in sec 4 now and someone asks me to run 10km, i'd say that guy is retarded...but today, I RAN 12 NON-STOP!!! WOOO!!! yeapp, the key word here is non-stop...i was running at a constant, stable pace non-stop (didnt stop to walk)...so, yea...glad i know how to pace myself to run without walking...woo!! then again, i can't take full credit for this...today, i wanna thank the ppl who made this possible....

THANK YOU huiling, for cheering me on even though i was super slow
THANK YOU 20th SC helpers, especially rina, fanglin & shawn, who pushed me not to give up, and fanglin saying "don't you dare stop!!"
THANK YOU elisha, for motivating me on, and telling me to never stop
THANK YOU sharifu, who kept telling me to go on whenever i completed 1 round, and telling me to run another round even though there was only 3 mins left, and i DID, thanks to you
THANK YOU jingyi and eunice, for being the reason for me to push on, because whenever i passed you, i'd say you guys are slow and continue running with the mindset that the 3 of us are playing a game, and whenever you guys caught up and passed me, you'd say that i was slow, and that made me press on to overtake you once again
THANK YOU wei xiang, who kept making me press on even though you, too, were totally dying
THANK YOU daron chua, who actually bothered saying i was doing well just cos you knew i was growing weak and needed an extra push
THANK YOU ibrahim, for telling me that me completing 12km is "quite good" when i was super sad i didnt manage to do 13
THANK YOU thomas, for your constant encouragement when i was running, and for starting to cheer me on when i sprinted to finish my last round despite the fact that you too were running
THANK YOU john & eterna, who pushed me to continue running even though i was super shag and threatening me that if i didnt press on, you'd "TUNE MY RADIO"
THANK YOU all the runners who kept telling me i could do it and i was almost there, trying to motivate me even though you guys were in pain and struggling to run yourselves

and most importantly, THANK YOU mr. yong, for you were my main motivation and inspiration...you have always pushed me on, and this resulted in me coming out stronger...whenever we run a few km during PE and i feel like dying, you run past me and say "well done, rohith!", and these 3 words make me press on..and when i finally complete the run, you mention my name in front of the whole PE class, saying "this is an example of willpower and strength" because i ran all the way non-stop despite my SIZE HANDICAP...the biggest thing is that you say this even despite the fact that you run much more than me every single day, clocking 30-40km a day...THAT is what i call strength and humility...also, whenever you commend me in front of the whole class after running, a line you'd always use is "i remember rohith during PAE...he couldn't even survive running 2 rounds around the track without stopping...now, he's running 6km non-stop!!" and said that this was due to my will-power...you know what? THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY WILLPOWER...i do it cos of YOU...YOU are my inspiration, YOU are my motivation, and whenever i feel like giving up, YOU are what makes me strive on...mr yong, YOU are indeed a hero, MY HERO, and if i dare say, MY GUARDIAN ANGEL...nobody knows this, but i shall tell the world today...in april or may, when i really felt like going to poly cos i gave up on jc already, we had PE and after our run, when you once again commended me and also talked to me alone on how YOU KNEW I COULD DO IT, it was there and then that i made up my mind that i'd stick to jc....

YOU ARE THE ONLY REASON WHY I'M STILL IN JC, MR YONG...

so yet again, mr yong, I THANK YOU.

WONDERWALL

2008-07-19T19:00:00.003+08:00

HALLO!!!

GOD knows why i'm happy....it's like, i've been down the whole week, and suddenly since last night, i've been happy....a bit random...i think i'm going mad...hahahahahha

lets see how life's been....

sch's been OKAY, i guess....nth much happened, except that i know A BIT of math now (for the 1st time!!!) and i STILL dun get a thing abt chem...the new econs teacher is quite strict...guess i'll have to start doing econs homework now...PW has been.....good? i dunno wad happened, but yea...PW is MUCH better than before, and i can safely say i'm happily involved in it... =)

and YESTERDAY!!! the thing that made me super happy....helped out for parent's night...was posted at the concourse for reception....and john (cetus captain) was the usher helping us....so screwed arnd with john...super fun!! hahaha....then the ppl doing reception with me were also fun....cant remember all their names, but yea....and MY PARTNER KEPT BULLYING ME!!! HER NAME IS NAOMI TAY, HUNT HER DOWN!!!! BULLY!!! hahahahahah.....

then once the parents stopped coming, we started passing arnd the buns meant for them, and started eating them....i video-ed A CERTAIN one of the helpers eating the buns....EATING WHILE ON DUTY....TSK TSK TSK....i'll consider uploading the video...hahahah.....

parent's night was awesome lah....met GREAT ppl, ppl who i expected to be a bit, err, unfriendly? but turned out to be ANYTHING BUT UNFRIENDLY!!!
probably the best ppl i've ever met in sr...
will miss them loads...hopefully, we'll still come across each other in sch...YOU GUYS ROCK!!! esp a certain SOMEONE... =)

you're my WONDER WALL =)

haiz

2008-07-14T21:57:00.004+08:00

just when i thought things were getting better, life just got worse...haiz...why do i even bother trying...i'll nvr get it right...why am i even here?

i just wanna cry it all out, but the tears just aren't coming...

FAILURE

2008-07-10T22:12:00.004+08:00

life sucks....it seriously seriously does....all the bullshit coming on at the same time....PW, mid yr results, council stuff and the endless number of stuff thats killing me softly....

first, PW...i'm rly trying my best to keep up with PW, but the biggest problem is that our gpp was done during camp aspire, so i didnt contribute at all...BUT i did the bloody survey qns all by myself...yet, that day i saw my whole pw grp talking....it's obvious they wanna file an IR against me cos they think i'm slacking, especially as the grp leader....i just wish they understood the situation, and realise that i slept for like 1 hr on monday just cos i was doing their share of the survey qns...it's rly hurting to know that you're own grp not only does not recognise your contribution but also goes against you....I'VE FAILED AS A LEADER...

next, results....i got 33 pts overall, including the class tests and stuff ah....i'm happy with that, but my parents aren't...they have full rights to not be happy with it...after all, they've supported me throughout life, they've done so much for me, they've sacrificed MOST of their money and TIME mainly on me, and what do i give them in return? screwed up results that won't even get me promoted...it's as though i've wasted the 17 yrs they spent bringing me up thru 1 single stupid mistake, of choosing not to study....they dun say anything to me ah, but thats cos they know i'm under a lotta stress and pressure already, and saying anything will just make it worse....but by keeping quiet, they're just hurting themselves...it's like i totally let them down, and yet again i feel like a burden on them...I'VE FAILED AS A SON....

council...needed to submit doorgifts for inspection on wednesday....its friday tmr, and we havent even completed half of it...to make things worse, some of my comm. members are making my life even more miserable ah.....1 can't be bothered at all and makes up stupid excuses to get away with coming on time or doing any form of work, 1 actually does wanna do work but comes late, expects to go off early and complains all the time abt how the sessions i call for are just a waste of time when she has to do some other stuff, 1 keeps on saying that we dun have to meet up to do it and he'll do it all at home, only ending up not doing anything at all and having us meet up the very next day to finish wad he said he'll do, only to repeat it the very next day...and the weakest link in the grp, ME....i suck at art and can't do anything, cos i'm scared i'll screw it up, thats why i cant contribute much to the project...so who am i to tell them to do stuff when even i can't do it??? I'VE FAILED AS AN ORGANISER....

also in council, 2 particular close friends of mine (they know who they are) are quitting, and i'm trying my best to convince them not to
quit...i dun think it's rly working, and i dun think they even know i dun want them to leave...I'VE FAILED AS A FRIEND....

and more stuff happened too....stuff i rly dun wanna talk abt....and a certain issue that only 2 ppl know abt....but it all roots down to 1 thing: I'M A FAILURE AS A LEADER, FAILURE AS A FRIEND, FAILURE AS A PERSON, AND MY LIFE'S JUST A FAILURE....

i've been trying rly hard to mask and hide my sorrow, by putting on fake smiles and laughing, just trying to act normal....i've managed to fool everyone, EXCEPT MYSELF....why can't my mind be as gullible as everyone else, and forget abt this stupid feeling within myself???

i dun wanna be in jc no more, i dun wanna go poly, i dun wanna be anywhere, I JUST DUN WANNA LIVE....life sucks...it's too much for me....it's killing me slowly and painfully....i wanna end off by saying thank you to my family and friends for all they've done for me, and sorry for all the times i hurt you all, be it intentionally or unintentionally...the reason why i'm doing this now is cos for all that matters, this may be my last night, and god knows whether i'll wake up to see tmr....anyway, the world's much better off without me....

MID YR RESULTS

2008-07-03T18:25:00.002+08:00

MYE RESULTS SO FAR:

MATH - S (super surprising!!! expected to get like 15%!!)
CHEM - U (expected lah...knew i'd screw up...23%....lowest in the whole 21st)
PHY - B (OMG OMG OMG!!! but kinda expected it ah...the paper was super easy....easier than sec 4 phy...)

results normal so far ah...expected to screw up...in the end, DID screw up...i'll say it again, i'm the one who didn't study, so i only blame MYSELF, no one else...very very happy abt phy though....it rly got me thinking....would it have been better off if i had taken h2 phy instead of h1, since i'm quite okay at it? no idea, only GOD knows...anyway, it's too late to look back...the only direction now is FORWARD!! WOO!!!

anyway, ytd was tat loong's bday!! so the day before ytd, tuesday, me, daniel, yong koon, thomas and tat loong went to heartland to eat...ate NYNY...lots of GOOD food...hahah...AND I GOT THE NEW YORKER CARD!!! WOO!!! after eating, yong koon, thomas and tat loong left...then me and daniel went to look for a present....bought this HUGE card and HUGE heart that read "100% yours" !! SUPER gay, but that was the point...hahah

so on his bday ytd (wed), we gave him his card and present...he was super shocked ah...and the point of the stuff was so that he couldn't put it in his locker, but the idiot forced it in...GRRR!!!

today...SUPER HAPPY!! only cos of PE!!! we ran 10 rounds, ie. 4 km...didnt stop to walk at all...and ran at a considerably okay pace, cos i was running in front of the fastest girl of another PE grp (my motivation was that if i fell behind that girl, i'd have no face...hahah)...so, yea...and then took height& weight....I LOST 4KG!!! WOOO!!!

class outing on monday at sentosa...dunno whether to go or not, cos the ppl are just gonna be with their cliques, and not as a class...haiz...

and btw, CONGRATS EDMUND!!! BLOODY IDIOT 86%!!! hahahah

finally

2008-06-29T18:59:00.003+08:00

haven't blogged in 1 week plus....i think the same thing that happened with my older blogs is happening again....TOO LAZY TO MAINTAIN....ahh nvm...lemme try while i still can...

MID YRS:
DAY 1: GP and econs....GP was okay....can pass....econs was super easy, BUT NO TIME COMPLETE THE PAPER!!! DRQ i lost 8 marks out of 20, cos i didnt do the last qn and half of the 2nd last qn....and essay, when i was writing intro for essay qn 1(b), they say put ur pens down!!! die lah....as good as saying all 15 marks gone for that qn....so total i lost abt 23 out of 45 marks for econs...the only way i can pass is if i get full marks!!!

DAY 2: MATH!! bloody paper....i dun understand anything...i attempted like, 3-4 qns? the best thing is that even if i get full marks, I'LL STILL GET U GRADE (34% if full marks)....to make things worse, ETERNA CAN SAY THE PAPER DAMN EASY!!! bloody eterna...

DAY 3: CHEM....OMG OMG OMG....when i was doing the mcq i was like "omg, the paper's super easy!! can pass!!"...when i reached the structured qns, i was like KANINABUCHAOCHEEBYEWHATTHEFUCK.....i stone at the 1st qn for 40 mins....WTF??? WHERE GOT LINK BETWEEN VOLUME OF LIQUID AND MOL??? talk cock for the 1st qn...then qn 2-6, i saw the qns and just gave up....no time anyway...so that means if i were to get full marks for the qns i attempted, i'd get 28%....

DAY 4: PHYSICS, LAST PAPER!! SUPER EASY LAH!!! THE ONLY THING I CAN PASS!!! if only the rest were like this...haiz....

ohh and they announced the ppl who got into exco!! not the posts, just the ppl...quite happy with them ah....very happy for ibrahim that he got in...actually, it's kinda expected ah...he would obviously get in....

ytd (saturday), hindi class...i pon...BUT MY TEACHER SAW ME PON-ING!! was super scared that she'd call my parents....luckily she didn't....then called ibrahim...EH WAIT, HE CALLED ME, COS HE GOT NO FRIENDS....hahahhaha....talked for a few hrs till my phone batt died...then sneaked into the carpark right on the dot, at dismissal time,
and my dad picked me up....not bad seh, i got skill...hahahah

after that, 1S23 PAE REUNION!!! a lotta ppl nvr come ah...but still got abt 8 of us...HAHAHA
...super fun....go swensens for dinner....screw arnd like hell....lepak after that...screw arnd even more....did lots of stuff...1S23 PAE OWNS!!! love them loads...miss them like hell ah, we were the closest of frens, we were the funnest ppl arnd...now we're all split up...nvm,
OUR LEGACY LIVES ON!!!

today, soccer in the morning...i thought it wld be diff from before, with more ppl coming...BUT, nth's changed...still the same screwed up attitude, with only 5 ppl coming...which was the main reason i closed the club down ah....god knows why i reopened it and THOUGHT ppl would change....
after that, WENT SHOPPING!!! bought this super hot leather shoes!! ROCKPORT!!! i didnt think my parents would let me buy rockport shoes, cos of the price...but this one just rocked too much!! and it was $175 ah...don't regret buying it at all =)

MID YRS....i have no one to blame but myself....i'm the one who didn't study despite having the chance to, i'm the one who slacked while ppl were mugging....i'm to blame....it's my own fault...jc's just not for me....my mom hinted that i could go poly, but dunno if she means it...if i go, i'll be letting a lotta ppl down...i'll be disappointing all my frens, seniors, teachers, family...i'll hugely disappoint my parents, but most of all, I'LL BE LETTING DOWN MYSELF....rly dunno wad to do now...haiz...

damnit

2008-06-21T17:41:00.002+08:00

today so far....at home....woke up at abt 12....supposed to STUDY again...hahahha.....ended up staying in my room playing some retarded game on the phone IBRAHIM found...

mid yrs in 1 day plus....still havent studied yet....i'm rly damn damn dead....i think i'm rly gonna end up in poly, judging by the way things have been going...TP OCTOBER INTAKE!!! just hope my parents let me....

gonna go out for SHOPPING! and dinner soon...can't help but feel a bit scared abt mid yrs....i don't get it...i didnt study at all so far and havent felt guilty, so how come i suddenly feel scared? and
i told myself i'm going october intake all the while, so why do i still feel worried? life is weird...

and RINA, WHEN I PS YOU?!?!?!?!

1st post!!

2008-06-21T03:10:00.005+08:00

hallo!!

blogging again after 2 yrs? told myself i wouldn't blog again, but sth just made me start...dunno why...

ahhh anyway, not gonna talk abt the past, just gonna limit it to TODAY (meaning, 20th june) !

went out with ibrahim & EDMUNDZEEXIANG for lunch plus studying...saw edmund after dunno how many months!!

went to montfort macs first for lunch...halfway thru lunch, i said my phone got a lotta problems, then ibrahim randomly pass me this phone his brother found, so now i'm using a FOUND PHONE!! supposed to be feeling guilty, but dunno why i damn happy...hahah

after lunch, we SUDDENLY decided we wanted to study...so went to hougang mall library...

started reading some books first, planned to study later...by the time we stopped reading, it was 4 plus...ibrahim was hungry, so we went KFC to eat...after eating, we were supposed to attempt to study AGAIN, but once again, we didn't...so instead, we went to look for a void deck to study under (be mats for 1 day)...first we found one directly opposite hougang mall and were slacking for a while, then suddenly one old lady sat beside us...was damn scary, like we step into her territory..so we run away...go find new void deck...

search for new place for damn long...go all the way to punggol cc to look for benches to study somemore...punggol cc dun even have any bench....dunno wad kind of stupid cc....so in the end we found another void deck! woo!

by the time we reach there, it was 8 plus...we took out all our stuff to study, but in the end ended up talking and slacking all the way till 9 plus...so in the end nvr study...hahaha....supposed to study, end up lepak-ing...reminds me of 4e2!!!! WOO!!!

omg....mid yrs in 2 days, haven't do anything except partial fractions yet!! AHH!!! DIE!!! ahh nvm, going poly!! DANIEL ONG ZHENGYI DON'T FORGET THAT YOU'RE GOING TP WITH ME!!

anyway, met ed after damn long...was super fun with him today, just like all the times we went out in sec 3 & 4...those were the days...now that he's gone, life seems totally boring...haiz....miss him and the good old e2 days.... (this paragraph seems very very gay)

ohh and THANKS VALERIE for staying up to help me choose blogskins!! good job, dodo!

thats all i guess...just hope this blog lasts longer than my old one...old one lasted 1.5 yrs, got tired of blogging, stopped posting in sec 3, eventually closed it down in sec 4 after no new posts in 3 months...hopefully the same thing doesn't happen here...gd luck blog!